只想过着和常人一样的生活，看似简单，却是那么地困难。。。
常常是有苦难言，但总有人无中生有，把自己说得楚楚可怜，博取他人同情。或许应该说，有些人太过自我，总觉得自己的一点事情是天下人所需怜悯，我实在看不惯。不去听，不去看，就应该不会起冲突吧。好希望能够再和他聊天，只可惜，“豪梦难圆”。

最近迷上了《翡翠恋曲》，感觉言哥和希儿的恋情蛮令人感动的。

went settler's cafe with lib excos the other day, and it was really fun! all the board games are those that we never seen or heard of before.. liked the doctor lucky game, cos its kind of like cluedo, and i like this kind of thinking games... went loyang with mum after that..
yesterday finally came, as it was my driving lesson.. haha improve abit ba... nt as kanchiong as the last time... and i got 2 more doraemon magnets! exchanging 3 more and they're on their way now on mail to me now.. haha im crazy bout doraemon stuff... hoping to get more doraemon stuff on my trips to china n taipei.. haha...

喜欢与崇拜

崇拜一个人可以变成喜欢，但喜欢一个人却不可能变为崇拜他。曾几何时，对我深具影响力，令我十分崇拜与敬仰的人，已不在我身旁指点。或许应该说，他似乎不曾在我身旁指点过我，但他却曾教过我许多令我毕生难忘的人生哲理。也许是因为它在我彷徨是伸出援手，令我极为感动吧。
喜欢又是什么呢？小丁当？也许，只要是你见了就开心得人或事物，就叫做喜欢吧。

星期二是二月初二，大伯公诞。和妈妈和四姨妈到洛阳大伯公庙去，可真是人山人海啊。我曾说过我认为那里应该是新加坡香火最鼎盛的庙宇。总觉得那里的环境很好，可能是风水吧，每次到那里都绝的很舒畅。只可惜，庙宇将在六月二十二搬迁到洛阳大路去。

Went to gym with Wanying this morning, before going to watch Mr Bean at Princess... A very hilarious show, typical of Mr Bean's show... went honghua to look at the watches with her, before deciding to go bugis as it'll be much cheaper there.. was feeling sick so upon reaching bugis, got to foodcourt and she helped me buy a cup of hot milo.. thanks gal for taking care of me, else I might have fainted =p and sorry for not being able to accompany you to get the watch..
Looking forward to the outing with lib exco tomorrow, hopefully i'll be fine after a rest later..

Many deadlines are due this week, alot of things to settle here and there, hope i din missed out anything important...

Sunday:
went Hougang swimming before meeting sis, nick & jiaxin for dinner.. had decided on eating suki sushi beforehand, but they suddenly said that they are not hungry for buffet.. sadz... was actually looking forward to it haha.. so had dinner at ichiban sushi at hougang mall instead.. food was ok and filling, but of cos i'd prefer to eat at suki since the price amounts up to about the same as eating the buffet.. hmmz.. took neoprints afterthat and walk around awhile at hougang mall before going home, and got another 2 magnets from 7-11 =)






Monday:
a full day of events as usual, since monday is always my busiest day.. tuition in the morning, then went to white sands.. thought that the kopitiam is at level 4 and still under renovation, but actually it has already start its operation at level 3 *pengz* and I din realised it until i sms him haha.. so i rotted for 2 hours plus in the library reading books on sle n recipes n magazines lol.. had driving afterthat, and i drove to ubi! the traffic at ubi really heavy and alot of ppl learning driving there too.. now i understand why my papa always scold and complain about taxi drivers, cos they keep honking and uncle lee also said that most but not all taxi drivers are very irritating.. went back to tampines for tuition after that, and then went to gym at night.. sis actually asked me to go Zan's house to join her for dinner, in the end she got a scolding from my mum saying that she never ever cook for her(my mum) in her entire life and now she's cooking for Zan and his mum.. lol.. so my sis had to cook for us this thurs, wonder if it'll be edible.. haha..

Well.. Am supposed to meet up with lib excos today, but had to go sgh to get some reports, so missed the outing with them =(

Sometimes I really wonder, just what is the meaning of life. As I read in The Five People You Meet In Heaven, our life on earth is only just a beginning... People whom cross our path sometime in our life might be greatly affected by us, or we might be greatly affected by them without realising.. It seems very amazing, that a same incident will have different impacts on different people.. Why did I think of all these? It was because I start to wonder about whats the most important thing in life -- Health? Money? Happiness? Kinship? Love? I guess it's a difficult question that nobody has the answer for.. All these seems to be inter-connected, 全都是缺一不可的。Perhaps the most important thing is that no matter how bad/good a situation we are in, we should always remain positive, and cherish what we have now..

Had Mac breakfast with mum at Compass point yesterday... it's been a long time since i had mac breakfast, its really nice =)
Went to bugis with yx in the evening... it was some festival yesterday so the guan yin miao at si ma lu is really crowded.. had to queue to get in.. hmm.. shopped at bugis street, but din buy anything cos din see anything i like... only got a kiwi mask from missha... but it was great shopping trip for yx cos she got quite alot of stuff..

Had tuna with bread for my lunch today, want to finish eating the loaf of bread soon so that i can buy another one and get my doraemon magnet! went to gym with oer after tat, and am really tired after workout.. but feel very refreshed, so i really enjoy it! Read The Five People You Meet in Heaven on the way to outram, and it was rather inspiring, as in some of the quotes are really thoughts-provoking....

But after I went to sgh and doc lui advise me not to take civil engineering, all my happiness turns into sadness... I must say that I felt really sad after hearing what he said..... although i might not necessary get into it, but upon hearing what he said, i really feel very depressed............ of cos i knew what he meant, prevention is always better than cure..and i also don't want what that had happened last nov to happen again... its not just about physical pain, its more on psychological... on me, my family and friends... i am really at a lost now... really sad...

Went to gym again yesterday, with doris n oer, too bad wanying cant make it as she needs to pack her stuff. Then had lunch with them at Century Square before going home.
Anyway, am collecting the doraemon magnets from 7-11, so if anybody has it and don't mind giving me, thx in advance.. haha..

Realised alot of things for the past few months, like who are the ones who really care, who are the ones who understands me, who are the ones who are sincere.. I saved all the text msg i received from those who sent their regards to me then, as I want to always remember and bear in mind those who really care.. Anyway, it really taught me something -- kinship is strongest and certain ordeal will tie us closer together...

Why does it seems like not many ppl are supportive of me going into civil engineering? Although I'm not the type of people who will be greatly affected by what others' opinions are, but its always better to hear that people are supporting you. =p It may be a difficult course, but just too bad that my interest lies there.. Actually, coming to think of it, just 2 years ago I'd thought that I would definately be a Chinese teacher next time, but now, I think my interest lies more in Physics. Perhaps it is that person of great influence that made me have this great change? I hope this is really what I like, and what I'm good at. Afterall, I believe that aptitude is much more important than attitude.. Perhaps I don't have both.. Anyway, a few months ago just as I was deciding between engineering and chinese studies, I told myself that it'll depend on my grades, if my Physics is better than my Chinese, then I shall take engineering course, and vice versa, cos I think my 'a's are really really a test of my aptitude, as not much time were spent studying. Since it proves that my Physics is better than Chinese, be it by luck or my real 'talent', I shall go the engineering path..

Went to ntu & nus open house today, very crowded but not very useful, but anyway i've already decided on the courses to apply for, so just went for fun. after open house, went home first before going Ryan's birthday party. Had dinner there and they played blackjack again lol...

Is gambling really bad? I think that its not necessary so, it depends largely on a person's character, and who you are gambling with. Personally, I think that as long as you're not gambling with large amount of money, occasional gamble(with family/relatives) can improve one intellectually, and also forge bonds. BUT of course, all who are playing should have a 'its just a game' mindset. 正如同为人处事，都不应该把得与失看得太重。凡事有失必有得，钱输了可以再赚，但亲情如果丢失了，就再也寻不回了。懂得适可而止，那就能做到小赌怡情了。

have got nothing much to blog about, except for some questions from somebody which for some reason i also don't have the answers. i really have no idea how to answer that fren when that question is asked, so i just replied something which makes no sense to 敷衍，可是我自己却很想知道答案。
向别人交待可以很简单，也可以很复杂，但对自己交待，绝对是复杂的。
两点之间最短的距离并不一定是直线。
偶尔思考，应该是有益的吧。

driving

tuition for Bryen in the morning, and he was mischievious as usual, bothering me about the number of stickers that he had.. went to white sands after that, food court still under renovation, so had to settle my lunch with mac, sadz.. buried myself in books in library, and 2 hours passed by very quickly.. and then it was my driving lesson! have been looking forward to it since last week, (and im now looking forward to next week's lesson lol ^_^) more clutch today, and went up to gear four.. traveling on the old tampines road is rather scary, cos the cars and big lorries there are all traveling at high speeds, and i bet they must be swearing that they met this learner driver in front of them, lol. he let me drive all the way to my tuition venue, and it was really fun!! had tuition for bryen's sis and cousin, and they were much more obedient than bryen, perhaps becos they are older.. had dinner at tampines after tuition before going home..

bro is going to buy new car! haha toyota altis, so cool, hopefully i'll be able to pass my tpp soon then i can drive his car.. =p

元宵节快乐！

小王子：“泪水渗透的悲哀之乡，是变幻莫测的。”
幸好，我不曾属于这悲哀之乡……因为我懂得什么叫做极限。
我不曾在昨天留下遗憾，因为我充实地过每个‘今天’，并且对明天充满希望。

A Levels

Collected A level results yesterday.. Physics-B, Higher Chinese-C, Maths-D, GP-C6.. Its not impressive, I know. But this is exactly what I expected, so I'm contented, really. Though it still doesn't feel good to hear those people who got much better results yet am complaining. But its ok after awhile, because I know everyone has their own expectations, and for me, this result is really an achievement and I can't ask for more.

I wanted very much to thank Nicholas for being so understanding, and also my relatives for expressing their concerns. It is heartwarming to know that there are still people around who really put themselves in my shoes and give me truthful comments. But unfortunately, not everyone is as understanding.

Anyway, I'm really really very happy to get B for my Physics, and am glad that it is my best subject, so at least I've not let Mr Chan down because he gave me lots of encouragement last Nov. Now, I just hope that I'll be able to get into Civil Engineering at NUS or Maritime Studies in NTU.

昨天，今天和明天

昨天已成为过去，今天是现在所有的，而明天是无法预测的未来。
有人说我们不应该活在过去，应该展望将来。但我认为，人应该不时替换身份，活在昨天，今天和明天，因为昨天能让我们吸取经验，学习更好的生活方式。今天是现实的一面，而明天却是虚幻的，但虚幻之中又含有希望的部分。。。

Sunday was 初八 so was preparing stuff to 拜天公...
Relatives came our house on Monday, and it was so crowded.. It was fun preparing the food with Mum since afternoon after my tuition.. and my relatives said that the 宫保鸡丁that I cooked was nice.. haha.. had some games of dice and blackjack and poker as usual.. and my cousin-in-law is so lucky as a banker for blackjack.. he won more than 1K at my aunty's house on Sat and at our house he also won a few hundred... anyway, my relatives are amazed by my huge collection of doraemon haha am so happy..

Tuesday was my first driving lesson! though abit nervous at first, but after awhile it get alrite and it was rather fun.. haha.. looking forward to the next lesson!

went to watch Just Follow Law with Sam yesterday at tm... very funny show though we din get to finish watching cos there was a blackout at GV -_- so we got a refund which means we got to watch more than 3/4 of the show for free... lol.. then we took neoprints..