中秋节

今天是八月十五，中秋节。
一天的行程排的满满的：早上7.40就到学校，担心学生不肯来学校补课，若他不出现我们就得上她家去找她。还好她出门了，但是到了学校门口，却又不肯进来。她母亲也无计可施，就请我帮忙。我出去了，却也一时不知该怎么走，这还是我第一次遇到这样的情况。还好过了一会儿校长就出现了。她连抱带拉地就把学生拖进学校。过后进行了一轮的辅导。我觉得自己获益匪浅啊……
「趁现在记得，赶快记下来几个重点：不要一直想着不愉快的事和不值得你当朋友的人，想想你身边那些爱惜你，疼惜你的人；你因为这件事受影响，万一考试不过关，就升不了中学，但是那群影响你的人却会过得好好的，升上中学继续他们的人生。这样值得吗？；他们说你是鬼，你是笨蛋。那我问你，你是吗？不是就不要理他们！；你要学会疼惜自己，爱惜自己。」
总之，就觉得她很有一套，另我不得不佩服，果然是能够服众的一个校长。停了她一席话，我感到惭愧，自己资历尚浅，人生历练不足，涉世不深，绝对不可能会达到她那种境界。想想，自己真的不会安慰人。还真的要好好学习如何安慰别人，鼓励别人……这门技术太重要了！
接着就忙着和各科老师们分享对策，连早餐都还没来得及吃，就收到care的电话，要我提早赴约。匆匆忙忙吃了几口米粉，就回去接凯再去赴约。做了决定。下午吃了午餐，到怡丰城图书馆找书却没找着，就到圣淘沙参观沙雕展（星际大战）——凯的最爱。天气是热得快要融化了，不过还是有一种莫名的开心。过后到了观音庙拜拜，送了凯到同事家聚餐，我就回来了。休息一会儿，也还在忙着学生的事，不一会儿就到妈妈家去准备庆中秋。
晚上将近11点才回来。忙了一天，感觉浑浑噩噩地过去了，好似忙了很多，却又好似什么也没完成。为何如此？好乱。好乱。到底在忙什么啊？到底都在追逐什么啊？

Confused

This is a special year... Good or bad? I'm not sure... Made important decisions, had hoped for the best, but things just don't work out the way I wish it to be. 

应该坚持下去，还是就这么算了？旁人说的容易，说只要一直尝试，不放弃，终会得到我想要的。然而我开始质疑了。

或许，一开始就注定不可能如偿所愿，那为何又要劳心伤神？

或许，应该相信一切冥冥中早已有了安排，无论怎么努力，都无济于事。

或许，什么人定胜天、守得云开见月明、皇天不负有心人、有志者事竟成这些都是骗人的。

或许，安于现状、知足常乐、无欲无求才是人生之道。

CNY eve

It's the CNY eve today. 1am now, can't get to sleep, just back from Bedok with parents, the to Punggol nursery to get flowers. After dropping off the parents, went to look for colleague to pass him CNY goodies. It's been a week since I last met him, seems like he is better now, just told me he went CNY last min shopping last night with the family. Good to hear that things are getting better. Also told him I'm sure it will continue to get better. Really hope to see him back in school soon. It is not easy definitely...

Few more hours to the CNY celebration in school. Gonna be a busy morning. Have always love CNY since young, glad the feeling still continue till now..

2019

It's 2019 now...  Today is a sad day for Singaporeans as we mourn the loss of a talented actor, who is so well loved by his family, friends, colleagues, practically every e who knows him said that he is like an angel... ...  RIP Aloysius Pang... 冯伟衷，一路好走……


This goes to shows how unpredictable life is, we should always treasure the times we have, with our loved ones..... Last Nov, I was just meeting up with buddy Samartha for lunch and shopping at orchard, and immediately that night I had severe tummy pains and shivering with high fever hence got to be admitted. Doctor said it is bacteria infection but unable to pinpoint what exactly is the cause. And now as I am typing, am having a very bad headache, while waiting for my colleague to pass me his stuff. It's also not a very good start to the year for him....
Just had a long chat with him... Got to learn something shocking, it's really not easy for him now, hope he will be able to tide thought this difficult times... Let him be back to normal again soon. Don't wish to lose a good colleague a good friend..