This is a long weekend, cos there were no lessons on thurs and fri... however, it seems that i'm not doing anything constructive for the past 2 days... well at least i went shopping with wanying on wed night, that was something constructive i would say hahah cos i havent went shopping with her for a long time...

went hougang mall with mum in the afternoon for lunch and bought some baking stuff from redman.. goin to try out some stuff next week.. cooked chilli crab for dinner, it was great haha..

time and time again, i thought i'm forgiving... but sometimes, i don't know if i'm too prejudiced against that person or is it that the persons' doings are too ridiculous.. or is it that im not forgiving enough? anyway, i always believe that 人在做，天在看。as long as we're not guilty of what we've done, why bother bout others? but it is easier said than done, especially when i see that person bullying another person... this is really unfair... 一种米养百种人……

It has been an interesting monday for the week, with both happy and unhappy stuff happening.. chinese lesson was usual, but paid more attention than last week haha so the concepts doesn't seem that difficult to grasp..

it was project meeting that poses as a headache.. met our tutor for discussion, and after the meeting with her, seems like everyone in the group and the tutor has same sentiments on 1 person.. its ok, different people have different thinkings, there's nothing we can do if the person is unwilling to accomodate.. anyway, i'm sure we all learnt from this project..

on the other hand, went vivo with dear, had a fun day, playing with the water on rooftop pool, looking at the seaview and stuff.. hhaha and got a small doraemon to keep me company and cheer me up ^_^ so i still love the monday!

子贡方人，子曰：“赐也贤乎哉？夫我则不暇。”

-《论语-宪问篇14.29》

子贡非议他人，孔子说：“子贡，你就那么好吗？我就没有闲功夫议论他人。”

Meaningful phrase... i guess we should think twice before we comment/critisise on others... feel so bad, haha but its just human nature lol...

Miss TAN Wanyier completed her 6k safra fun run today! and she ran all the way(as she said so, i wasn't with her) what a great achievement!!(considering they never really train for it although they always said they want to, end up bringing shoe bag to sch just for 'show' hahahha)

Watched Meet Dave with Deary yesterday.. It was very funny, haven't watched a comedy for ages... (Money no enough 2 is not considered cos i think its so touching im actually crying half the show lol) its nice to have a good laugh, esp in the middle of the week where alot of assignments are due for the week...

Thanks to NTU students union day, lessons are cancelled today... so i don't have to travel all the way for 2 hours of tutorial of which 1 hour is listening to presentations... can 'rest' at home, or rather chiong my moral edu assignment that is due tomorrow.. just realised that i've got no references for the essay...

heard of yet another heart-breaking story of my cousin last night... they already applied for a hdb flat which will be ready in 1-2 years time, but now they're going their separate ways... 是缘分已尽？

Went Seng Kang Anchorvale swimming complex just now.. it was nice!! like a smaller version of the Jurong east swimming complex... just that it doesn't have the lazy river and wave pool.. other than that there's slides, jaccuzzi.. there's also a sheltered pool! can go regardless of weather! haha the gym there seems nice also cos its new hahah..

finished critical thinking essay, now left with 道德教育essay and the moral edu presentation.. think this sem really passes by quickly.. its alr week 3, and alr so many assignments due and done...

saw CK's tag, so i decided to blog abit more today..

相信每当我遇见一个一见如故或是似曾相识的人时，或许就是前世所结下的缘。Sometimes I do wonder why I can say so many things to someone who's just a stranger(eg a teacher who has not taught you before). perhaps it is in our previous life that we owe each other something or we cause some hurt/damage to each other unknowingly, that is why in this life, we got to meet and our task is to 'resolve' the problem.. afterwhich, we proceed on with our own life, with no more dealings with that person(literally), but deep down in our hearts, we may have benefitted greatly from him/her... therefore i think that all those who've crossed our path sometime in our life has got a purpose.. be it to enlighten you(which i interpret as that person oweing you something in the past life hence is here to return the favour) or have conflicts with you(perhaps cos you owe that person something in the past?) no matter what, everyone whom has once entered your life enters for a reason, and we will be able to learn something from it...

this is the same as what i think about things that happened in life... be it good or bad, all things happen for a reason.. and we can all learn from the incident..

i also believe a person's character is very much related to his/her previous life..

Watched 12 Lotus with Mum at TM just now.. it was a nice and touching movie with nice songs... really enjoyed the movie ^_^

Anyway, I just got to know that the Sengkang sports complex has opened!! can go there to swim le...

每个人都有一段悲伤，想隐藏却欲盖弥彰。
--张信哲《白月光》

was clearing my email inbox, and I chanced upon a few emails that i received a few years ago... am somehow affected by those mails.. or rather, by the memories...

"It is normal for a person to feel upset whenever she thinks of difficult periods of her life"
perhaps its really true.. 也不知道为什么，突然间觉得有些沮丧。也许，人在情感脆弱时是会胡思乱想的吧。会不会有那么一天，我会成为他人的包袱？现在正是情感交集之时，既是沮丧，又参杂些许愧疚，又有些害怕、担心甚至是不甘……

是磨练，还是打击？
两件事都留下阴影。
是从中学习？
是吸取经验？

人的记忆是永远无法删除的。无论好或坏，无论对或错。它们一辈子都敢随着你，不由得你选。虽然说我的过去造就了现在的我，让我过着现在所过的日子。但是，倘若一切可以选择，我会希望自己的路是这样的吗？ 因为有你，我才会说现在的日子过得很好，才会说这是命运的安排。倘若没有你的出现，或许我会怨天尤人，更加觉得一切是那么地不公平。可是，我好担心未来。一切，一切都是未知，万一某一天，我成为你的负担怎么办？我真的好累。

如果你知道我所担心与顾虑的理由，请不要到处“宣扬”。。。这是我的隐私，我有权力选择对象诉说，所以希望你不要未经我同意就将事情告知他人，因为这么做是对我的不尊重。

School has started, and alot of assignments came flooding in... it is really overwhelming lol..

on a brighter note, went shopping with deary at Orchard today after lesson... he bought a doraemon laptop bag for me! haha love it lots... and i got ourselves couple hp pouches lol.. happy~~ hehe after that i went hougang swimming with mummy.. now im home, watching the Beijing Olympics Opening Ceremony. Everything was great, esp the performance with all the huge number of performers... right now, each participating countries' atheletes are marching in... its taking a long time, quite boring so here i am...

well, shall be going to sleep soon, as i woke up early... and ya, today is the last day my bro's GU3400R Nissan is with us.. haha so i woke up early to help him drive it to the car dealer then he sent me to school... he must be happy to get a new car, though its 2nd hand lol...

Watchted Money No enough at PS on thur, it was funny and touching at the same time... a great show, typical of Jack Neo's movie... it brought back memories of the Money No Enough 10 years ago.. it really touches the hearts of Singaporeans..



It was a great day yesterday, 2nd August...
Watched Dark Knight at Suntec.. it was a show with great plot... Went onto the flyer yesterday also ^_^ and it happens to be NDP preview so we got to view fireworks! though not on the flyer, but still get a great view of the fireworks.. and the view on flyer was great, we had a chance to view both day and night scenery cos we went onboard around 7+... haha after that we had chocolate fondue at Marina square Chocz... it was nice, but the portion is more like for 4 persons lol... Really enjoyed myself with Deary yesterday :D

school's reopening tomorrow.. had a five-day week this sem.. though each day only had an average of 3 hours lessons..

time really flies, its lunar seventh month again..

是否冥冥中自有安排，所有和我们擦身而过的人都有着个别的象征意义？
有些人，只和他相处五天，就能从他身上学习到许多事物。
有些人，认识了几年，却只是微笑问好，不会有更深入的谈话。
有些人，认识很久，但不常联络，却能无所不谈、畅所欲言。

突然想起一件事、一些人。也许，事情令我成长。

一切已时过境迁，所有人都忙着为自己的前途迈进，会有几人回首过去，感叹时光的流逝？过去已是不能改变的事实，明天才是我们应该展望的！

There's nothing in this world that is more precious than time spent with your loved ones... All the memories shall be treasured...

Went Compass point with my mum for some shopping yesterday... i really love the feeling of having my loved ones with me...

awaiting for time to pass by quickly....

Met up with Tjc lib excos ytd for dinner and some arcade+shopping+chatting and desserts at Cafe Cartel.. it was a nice gathering meeeting up with the gals...

Well, my sis just went to SA tours fair last night, and she booked our tour to Yunnan for end of the year! Looking forward to it already... its goign to be a 10d9n trip! My whole family is going! yeah am so happy...

I'm back from Hong Kong!! It was a great trip! Didn't have all the photos with me now so will upload onto facebook after i got them...




Well, I just sold my S500i this morning, and got a new phone, T650i!
Its green in colour! haha.. just came back from gym, will be goin off to tuition before heading for weiai's 21st bday celebration...

Went out with dear ytd to look for weiai's present, and we chose a heart shape necklace from lee hwa jewellery for her.. haha going to change now before im late for tuition lol...

Today is my last day of school experience in CCHMS, it has been a great learning experience for me, all the teachers in the CL dept are very friendly and helpful.. they're generous in guidance also, i really learnt alot of stuff here... My CT is good enough to arrange for me to observe different lessons from differnt teachers everyday, it really benefitted me alot..

i have to say that CCHMS students are really lucky to have so many enrichment courses arranged for them, like broadcasting news and news reporting, tea appreciation (they even have a tea house in the school!) they are really lucky but they never cherish.. it seems that students are also more noisy in class, and as the teachers said, they are 天不怕，地不怕...

But i must say that i really like the school environment, its even better than befoer, with the CCA block renovated and renamed into 日新楼...

And so, I'm now rotting in the computer lab.. supposed to supervise the students to type their essays, but only 2 students are around, seems like a waste of my time.. haha since i got nothing to do, just let them 'make use' of me for the last day ba.. at least she's nice enough to log in her account and let me use the net, else i'll be bored to death hah..

was observing a sec 1 CL class just now, 2 students actually cheated in their test! they were unlucky enough to get caught by Penguin who happens to walk past... wondered how the teacher will handle the matter..

School observation at Rivervale Pri has been good so far... not alot of lessons, at most only 5 lessons(2.5 hrs) per day, haha which means alot of slacking time in the staff room lol.. Am in the pm session so can wake up late lol... Though so, still feel tired out easily =(

Seems like the teachers have to shout almost every lesson... but the kids are cute at times, though they sometimes behave like monsters... lol... hopefully i'll be able to control the kids in future...

Finally meet up with Dear today! Although only for a dinner and some chat, but am happy haha.. I will get well soon de, then I can resume my normal activities! Wanna go watch Get Smart and quite a few other movies..

Its a happy day today! ^_^

《生命》

生命与希望，互相共存。

美好的生命，源自希望。
美好的希望，源自生命。

不完美，却令我懂得尽善尽美。
不完善，却令我学习接受瑕疵。

我的生命虽不完美、不完善，
却是多姿多彩，五光十色！
我的生命不缺希望、不缺爱，
一切都是命中注定，我虚心接受！

我会坚强勇敢，永不言弃！

I'm finally discharged! after a 6d5n stay lol.. so many things happened, made me realised the importance of health, family and frens... Life is really precious, and unpredictable... only 2 days, and the blood platelets can have such a drastic drop... well, at least im fine now ^_^

Thanks to all who've visited me and those who've sent regards to me, all are deeply appreciated

Watched this on Shiting's blog and find it very nice.. haha its really a nice song, with so many singers, though i din know quite a lot of them.. haha.. watching this makes me feel like going to china again.. though i've always wished to.. haha there are still so many places for me to visit and explore... thats why i really hope to graduate soon and start working, so i'll have money to travel around!

Happy Birthday Gui Hao!

Meet the girls at Clarke Quay before going to Minds' Cafe for games... it was fun! and the place was empty, we were the only ones playing lol hence the service is very good... The mango mousse cake is nice, and am glad that gh likes the bag :D All the games we played were fun, esp the Sleeping queen..

Had a great day at Vivo with Deary yesterday... got gh's present there also.. and you're right dear, its always forgive before forget.. even though its unforgettable, at least it wun be painful anymore... its a great day ^_^

sometimes what appears to be the end, is actually a new beginning.
I'm fortunate, I have alot of ppl caring about me. I shall treasure what I have. Though things may not go the way I wish, but I guess things should be left the way they should be. Looking on the brighter side, it might be a blessing in disguise....

Made Kizhang last week, and passed some to Dear's parents on sat... nothing much to blog about these days, although everyday is a happy day.. haha..

but sometimes things just wun turn out the way i wished it would... there are just things that are unpredictable and uncontrollable, perhaps its all predestined, no matter what i do and how positive i am, things will still happen the way they are meant to happen... i just hate this kind of feeling whereby i cant do anything to 'salvage' the situation because no matter what i do, it doesn't help.. there's nothing i can do at all.. why am i stuck in this situation... 我以为我已经看开了，以为一切都不会出问题，但是我还是没有办法阻止‘它们’的入侵。

《内心的城堡》续……
保守森严的城堡，
传来阵阵哀号。
望去是一片颓垣断壁，
堡内更是狼藉不堪。
外与内的双层伤残，
加惧了堡主的伤痛。

巫师有神奇魔药，
让城堡立刻容光焕发，
却没有灵丹妙药，
让堡内恢复正常、平凡。
魔药减少，依旧惨不忍睹。
加加减减，无法平复创伤。

had Chilli crab for dinner last night! As my dad's bday celebration in advance... n most importantly, the steamed yam cake turns out fine!! hahah but its abit too hard lol but still quite nice..

am so bored at home now.. dun really feel like goin out also cos have another tuition in the evening later... but i shall go out tmr!!

time is like crawling so slowly :(

Nothing much to blog about these days... Looking forward to HK trip in July, and also researching on where to go during dec holidays.. want to find some places that are not so cold...

since im so free nowadays, been reading 《论语感悟》by 于丹，which is the part 2 of 《论语心得》... bought a copy of 《论语》at the World Book Fair last sat too.. its really a great book.. hav also been playing with Pinkie and going to expend her house soon since I found alot of tunnels and extension while packing the storeroom the other day.. Am also experimenting on more dishes.. cooking yam cake now, hopefully it tastes nice.. will be making Ki Zhang tomorrow for dumpling festival..

Shall blog again later if the yam cake turns out fine LOL

Deary got me a Doraemon soft toy! Thanks deary.. Had a great day at vivo today.. ^_^

at Singapore Expo now with my Mum, to go to the food fair. Its very crowded, seems like food is still an attractive temptation lol.
Had a great day with tj lib ppl ytd, went to the new bowling centre at downtown east with them, the place is great! Shall go again soon. After the game we went to tm to watch Drillbit Taylor, quite a funny show. We were doing funny stuff inside the cinema, cos we were afraid of dripping the cheese from our nachos onto each other's bag haha

Ana, Bronson got 3rd in class despite getting only 61 for Chinese! :)

小和尚跟老和尚下山化缘，走到河边，见一个姑娘正发愁没法过河。老和尚对姑娘说，我把你背过去吧。于是就把姑娘背过了河。
小和尚十分惊讶，却又不敢问。这样又走了二十里路，小和尚实在忍不住了，就问老和尚说，师父啊，我们是出家人，你怎么能背着那个姑娘过河呢？
老和尚就淡淡地告诉他，你看我把她背过河就放下了，你怎么背了二十里地还没放下？


觉得这个小故事传达了孔夫子的思想，非常有意思。的确，该放下时且放下，因为宽容别人其实是给自己留下来一片海阔天空。

Am so happy today! Cos I got a hamster!! Her name is Pinkie, a black bear species!! Its so hard to find it cos normal pet shops never sell.. Managed to find it at Serangoon North.. Shall post up her pics someday..

Busy as i may seem, but i realise that many things are not as unforgettable as I thought.. is it just that my memory is not as good? perhaps its better that we dun use up our so called brain-memory to store too much of the past memories.. will it be better if we just concentrate on the future, planning ahead, and just forget about the past happiness and unhappiness? No, I just want to remember those beautiful memories and forget about the unhappy ones.. its not that easy, especially if something really makes you so unhappy that it affects you so much so that you can't forget it all..

There may come a day when our brain functions just like our thumbdrive, we can choose what to store and what to delete.. in that case, we can choose to delete away those unhappy memories that we dun wish to remember.. will it make the world a better place to live in??

Everything provides us with a learning opportunity, so I think if we just 'delete'away the unhappy memories and forget all about it, we may lose the lessons learnt from that incident as well.. 俗语说：有得必有失。所有的得与失其实都让人领悟某种道理，问题在于我们如何去看待它，我们利用哪一种心境去面对它。正如所有人都不可能是完美的，也不可能凡事都能达到本身所定下的水准与要求。也不是说应该降低水准与要求，只是觉得我们都该坦然面对，接受对方的不完美。可这一切谈何容易？只能不时地提醒自己：我也不是完美的，凭什么要求别人是完美的；我不能凡事都达到对方的要求，又凭什么要求对方一切都能符合我的要求呢？

相信只要所有人都肯用一种将心比心的心态去处世待人，一切都会是美好的，一切都会成为美丽的回忆！

Happy Mother's Day to my dearest Mum!!!

Had dinner at Hiang Suar restaurant at bedok..

Been slacking this holidays, dun think will be looking for any jobs.. haha but am aiming to exercise more lol... at least 3 times a week, which i think is rather reasonable.... hmm chatted with zk the other day, seems tat he has grown more mature over the years, and has changed his perspective in relationships.. well, the fact that he's planning ahead for his future, and wanting to go overseas for studies showed that he has really grown up and no longer the childish boy i used to know..haha..

i guess as we grow, we get to know more people, see and experience more things and hence will be more mature.. i think this is the same as 家有一老，如有一宝。 cos the elderly, or rather ppl who are older tends to have 更多的人生经验，因而也能提供我们更宝贵的意见。相信凡是多听取他人的意见，是有利无弊的吧。

常听人说：“健康就是财富”，总以为那只是老一辈的人的口头禅。但是事实证明并非如此，所有人都应该珍惜自己的健康……

Seems to be blogging lesser during the holidays.. haha.. not that i'm very busy, nor that i have nothing to blog.. sometimes its just not knowing where to start..

had a great day cycling at ECP with Dear last fri! rented 2 hours of bike, cycled till the U-jetty that my parents used to bring me there when i was young.. many beautiful memories.. sat at the break-waters and listen to the waves before heading back.. drank the coconut drink at the hawker -- something i never failed to do when i go cycling at ecp =P

after cycling went to sgh for blood test n appt.. went to the renovated chinatown hawker for dinner, but not many stalls were open..most importantly, my favourite chee cheong fan stall still not open.. haha..

many things await us to explore in life.. many frens, whom i tot are just 'normal' frens turn out to be those i can actually confide in.. but i think all i can do now is to live my life to the fullest, cos there's really no point worrying about the future... though the chances are high, at least its not something fatal, it should be a blessing in disguise i suppose... that made me cherish my life now and treasure the moments i have... I shall overcome the fear!

I still want to travel to many parts of the world.. hope to be able to bring my parents to Yunnan by next year..

Celebrated XR's belated bday on Sat at Marina Square.. Long time since all of us turned up - Guihao, Yuxuan, Sam, Xinrou, Peiwen and me.. had dinner at Cartel, ate the Chicken Chef's salad and it was great..

Miss Tan Wan Ying found a pink bunny 'loitering' or rather 'sleeping' outside her house and she kept her in and named it Pink 耳朵.

Finally found a playground with swing!!! At sun plaza park, read bout it from KJ's blog and so went there with deary... it was great to play the swing again! its a great feeling!!

had always love to play swings since young, and also like to go by the sea.. just sitting there, quietly, listenign to the waves...

Watched The Forbidden Kingdom yesterday with Dear.. the show was ok, its quite an interesting story with interesting characters, but its sort of weird that its in English, and it seems that the script is written in chi den translated into eng.. haha cos some of the dialogues are rather chinese-style..

walked around in Plaza sing, cathay, park mall and istana park.. lol really enjoyed the day^_^

Exams are finally over!!! Had a great day with my classmates after the paper yesterday... was on the way to marina square for bowling, den we passed by Gelaré and realised it is Tuesday!!! so the waffles are half-priced! haha so we sat down and eat our ice-cream waffle.. then we proceed to marina square and played bowling.. had 2 games each, and we were all very tired after the first game... haha too long never exercise already...

after that, went to meet biying and xinrou at vivo! got a cake from Chocz at Marina Square and we celebrated 4 of our birthdays toge at vivo rooftop lol... shopped around before goin home.. had a great post-exam celebration ^_^..

牡羊座的女人

如果你期待一個林黛玉般的女孩來滿足你的男子氣概，碰到了她，你可真是門兒都沒有了，識相的話，趕快找個窗子開溜吧！在火星守護下的牡羊座女子，通常是積極而且堅強的。像小鳥依人、楚楚可憐這一類的形容詞很難加諸在她身上。

牡羊座的女子應該算得上十二個星座中，獨立性最強的女性。她絕對不是那種整天守在家裡，等著你來接她、送她，完全缺乏獨立行動能力的典型。對於大多數的牡羊座女孩來說，她寧願相信如果沒有你在身邊礙手礙腳，她辦事效率或許要高得多。聽我這麼說，你或許會以為這樣的女人是不需要男人的！那可就錯啦！自信而驕傲的牡羊座女性確有著堅強的獨立生存能力。但她們內心都深深地渴望著她夢中的白馬王子快點出現呢！很難相信吧！看起來那麼銳利的她，其實是充滿著童話般夢想的。而對所有的牡羊座女子來說，她們心裡最大的矛盾就是渴望征服對方，又期待著被對方征服的微妙心裡。

你現在可能有些擔心，不知道該如何扮演好自已的角色了，是嗎？別慌！先把你的「真心」準備好，以後的辦法就好商量了，雖然有一點點辛苦，不過保證值得。

首先，你必須認清，牡羊座的女子基本上是「英雄主義」的。她會傾心於一個令她佩服的男人。她要嫁一個讓她引以為傲的丈夫。她或許會比較欣賞事業有成的男人，但這並不表示她是個拜金主義者。家財萬貫的花花公子是不會讓她心動的，滿腔理想的熱血青年反而會受她的青睞。因此，如果你愛上了一個牡羊座的女子，請先不必展開熱烈的追求。哈巴狗一樣的男人會讓她既討厭又害怕，她深怕給你一個禮貌的微笑之後，你就會死纏著她不放了。你最好先讓她了解你的才幹、你的魅力，引起她對你的好奇（或者應該說引起她征服你的興趣），等你感受到她對你真有好感之後，你再誠懇的對她表示愛意，那麼前途就大有可為了！

你要像個「大男人」的樣子（我說過她很英雄主義），但是你絕不能對她頤指氣使。你一定要真心的關懷她，但絕對不要太縱容她。我想你應該用一種「英雄惜英雄」的態度來待你的牡羊座女人，才是比較適當的。

絕大多數的牡羊座女子都很好強，她們堅持要在對方的心目中保持最重要的地位。當然她也會把你擺在她心中最重要的位置。而且她很忠實、很大方。她願意與你分享她的一切。當然，她也會認為你應該與她分享一切，包括你的秘密。欺騙你的牡羊座女人，有如犯了欺君之罪一樣的嚴重。這一點你可千萬要記住，她情願聽你令她心碎的懺悔，也不要接受美麗的謊言。你最好少在她面前誇獎其她的女孩，尤其是那種由衷的讚美，極可能會引起雷霆大火。

我有好幾位牡羊座的好友，每次有聚會的時候，我一定只和她們的另一半保持禮貌性的交談，儘量避免談笑風生的場面。或許，你也會察覺，她的朋友也在刻意跟你保持一些距離，你可別以為大家都是敬鬼神而遠之。這是因為牡羊座的女人在朋友圈中，多半是大姐頭類型的人物，她很講意氣，很樂意幫助別人，因此，同性的朋友才不願意引起不必要的誤會。牡羊座的女人確實有點霸道，不過這也是她個性中可愛之處。遇到事情，她常常會挺身而出，她對朋友講義氣，對你也絕對如此。牡羊座的女人是會為愛人拚命的。

我有個經商的朋友娶了位能幹的牡羊座妻子。婚後，她的確成功的扮演著賢內助的角色，使他原本就蒸蒸日上的事業，更加飛黃騰達。我這個朋友什麼都好，既有才幹又顧家，只可惜風流本性始終改不了，不過索性都是逢場作戲，沒有驚動到太座大人，沒想到有一回遇上了一個厲害角色。這個女人對他死纏不放。尋死要活，搞到最後，他實在沒辦法了，只好老實向太太招供。或許很多女人會傷痛欲絕的跑回娘家去，要不就是跟老公又吵又鬧。我這個朋友的太太可沒這麼軟弱，她先是把我的朋友好好的數落一頓，然後問清楚了那個女人的住處，立刻趕到那兒去。她跟那個女人說：「妳要死要活，是妳的事，如果妳再敢找我老公，我就告妳，妳最好不要得寸進尺，否則我就讓妳死的很難看！」

只花了三分鐘，這位牡羊座的妻子就把困擾老公兩個多月的問題解決了！誰敢說她不是賢內助呢！牡羊座女人永遠胳臂朝內，槍口朝外的態度是非常令人激賞的，但是你千萬要記住你們是一體的，吃裡扒外的男人可就要吃不了兜著走囉！

由於她們那麼積極堅強的個性，許多牡羊座的女子都會給人一種尖銳、而且愛找麻煩的印象。在表面上，她們是不會讓別人（尤其是男人）佔便宜的。很多人會認為牡羊座的女人總是尖嘴利牙的得理不饒人。正因為如此，她們常常會吃些暗虧，受到挫折，她們總是比其他的女孩活得辛苦一些。其實，你應該明白，她們的內心多半是正直、善良，而且脆弱的。只要你真心的關懷她，在她受了委屈的時侯，給她一個溫暖的懷抱，她會成為你一生忠實可靠的伴侶。

牡羊座的女人幾乎都可以成為出色的職業婦女，也同時能做稱職的家庭主婦。事實上，讓她擁有自已的事業對你們的婚姻是有幫助的。當她儘量在工作上發揮了她的好勝心和征服慾之後，回到家裡做綿羊的機會就比較大了。如果要一個精力旺盛的牡羊座女子，把心思全放在「你」的身上，我擔心你會有點受不了的。至於家庭，你大可放心，她雖然柴米油鹽之類的瑣事，不是那麼有興趣，但好強的她，不會讓自已成為一個失敗的主婦的。
還有件事你該慶幸，那就是我很少看到一個邋遢的牡羊座妻子，她們大多都在婚後依然保持光鮮亮麗，不願意別人譏笑她老公娶了個黃臉婆。就算偶爾懶散一下，只要老公稍加提醒，她們立刻就會警覺。我有個產後稍微發福的牡羊座女友，就因為老公說了一句「以前我最欣賞妳那雙修長的腿了。」她硬是兩個月減肥了二十磅。就憑她這股堅強的毅力，你能不相信她會全力以赴的做個好妻子嗎？

牡羊座的女人與「性」
在性愛方面，牡羊座的女人多數是激情熱烈的，她們很少會是纏綿悱惻、細火慢燉的類型。拖拖拉拉、瑣瑣碎碎的男人，會讓她覺得很不耐煩。在性愛的場面中，她依然保持著自信、明朗的氣質。牡羊座的女人很乾脆，「Yes」「No」分得很清楚，很少有什麼半推半就的情況。

牡羊座的女子與十二個星座的男人
1.牡羊座：或許有一些單調，但基本上的看法多數一致，步調很容易配合。不過妳得要懂得「第二名」哲學才好哦！
2.金牛座：妳會欣賞她的腳踏實地，卻受不了他的不溫不火，而他對妳的大女人主義，恐怕是不敢恭維，妳要學習「沈默是金」。
3.雙子座：他會讓妳覺得十分有趣，但試圖掌握他會讓妳覺得沒有安全感，更會令他窒息。
4.巨蟹座：他的溫體貼會讓妳覺得窩心，他的情緒化會讓妳覺得他有些軟弱，而妳尖銳的言詞卻很容易剌傷他。
5.獅子座：他會讓妳覺得真的遇上了夢中的王子，但妳必學習作個公主的樣子，如果硬要作皇太后，那麼愛情就要消失囉。
6.處女座：你們彼此有著奇特的吸引力，雖然有太多地方你們完全不同。或許是他不厭其煩的叮嚀，讓妳了解了他真實的關心。而妳的明朗直率，照亮了他原本太過平實單調的生命。
7.天秤座：他會引起妳征服他的慾望。爾後妳會覺得他的溫柔纏綿無法配合妳熱情的步調。而他也會害怕妳稍嫌霸道的個性。
8.天蠍座：表面上妳似乎總是佔上風，事實上，妳可討不了便宜。你們彼此都在享受戰爭的剌激，忍受傷痛的煎熬。
9.射手座：這是個歡喜冤家的搭配，吵吵好好，有如扮家家酒一樣。你喜歡充滿理想的他，又生氣酷愛自由的他。而他欣賞妳始終同一戰線的義氣，卻又受不了妳管得太多。

10.摩羯座：如果妳堅持要做家裡的風紀股長，那麼這個男人是不能接受的。他是忠實可靠的，但他也是保守而固執的。
11.水瓶座：妳是熾烈的，他是涼涼的，他對妳很好，但始終沒有熱烈的追求，妳很難掌握他，這就是他一直吸引妳的原因吧！
12.雙魚座：他的羅曼蒂克令人響往，但他的情緒起伏讓妳吃不消。妳的直言無諱可能會把他嚇跑。如果想要他妳得做隻綿羊才行。



有些部分还蛮准的……这几天都没好好读书，整天想些有的没的，也不知道自己在干什么。有几部想看的电影：The Forbidden Kingdom, Escape from Huang Shi, The Other Boleyn Girl, Definitely Maybe..看来考试后不会空闲了……不知为何，近来总觉得很累，有点心神不定的感觉，好想出国散散心……

昨天考了AAC103修辞学，似乎就好像一切考试都结束了。考完式就出去玩了一整天，将近午夜才到家。到了Bugis逛街，再到四马路观音庙拜拜，然后晚餐还吃了麻辣火锅，真是痛快！
晚间和几个志同道合的同学到Drama centre theatre 观看“都是当兵惹的祸”。演员们卖力的演出真叫人不得不为之所感动啊。 “潇潇洒洒风风光光的音乐喜剧!” – 联合早报
在考完式后观看此剧果然再恰当不过了，因为笑声不断，真令人将一切烦恼抛掷九霄云外，可谓解压良药！

finally finished and submitted my last assignment, AAJ131 report on mon... was just slacking and rotting at home while trying to study for ALS test... found out what are the topics for the different days, and thought writer's identity will come out.. but it din.. what came out was: what are the basic elements of a good argument? never thought that this will come out, never even remembered it as a topic.. lol.. luckily i remembered my tutor saying argument=claim+justification.. so i just wrote on these 2 points..

Went for tuition earlier in the day, then went to CCHMS bazaar by the lake with parents.. the downpour really drenched us, but am really happy to see my teachers again.. Saw Mrs Kee with her son, she still recognise me and remember my name!! so happy.. Also met Ms Wong Peng Kwee, she was in charge of traffic control, what a tough job lol having to stand in the rain (with umbrella but the rain was very heavy) to control the traffic flow... quite surprising, as i thought this kind of job shouldn't be assigned to teachers? somemore she's now a HOD.. well anyway, chatted with her too and she also remember my name! haha at least it shows that i'm not just any normal person in sec sch whom teachers forget after graduation.. lol it might not be a good thing either.. Also saw Mr Wang Feng, he recognise me but dont think he remembers my name... it feels great to see the teachers again, as they really taught me alot back then.. not only content knowledge of the subjects, but also philosophies of life.. too bad i din get to see somebody else í'd like to see =P doubt that person will be there anyway.. haha

Somehow, i miss sec sch days, i guess thats the most important part of my sch life, and the most memorable days i had in my sch life.. of course certain incident that happened back then made me sad and tried to avoid alot of classmates, but as i grew, i learnt that it is this kind of incident that provides me with learnig opportunities.. leant who are the true frens around, learnt to appreciate the help rendered from somebody i used to disliked, and most importantly, learnt to cherish life and be happy and content that i'm able to wake up each morning... will never forget his words, cos if not for him i'd never want to stand up and forge on....

Had a great surprise this morning not long after i woke up! Received this big bouquet of flowers!! Thanks dear for the great surprise!! ^_^


Took a few photos before leaving house to Vivo... Meet MISS TAN who happens to be at Vivo also, and got my present from her, so creative of her to use the calendar as a 'card'..


Had a nice nice day today!!! Shopped around at Vivo and Harbourfront centre, before going for Hanabi buffet dinner... the buffet was great! the sashimi were very fresh! Really enjoyed myself... THANKS ALOT DEARY FOR MAKING MY 20TH BIRTHDAY SUCH A MEMORABLE ONE ^_^


Home sweet home, and kor bought a 933 golden pillow curry chicken bun as my bday 'cake'.. creative of him also, seems like i've got lots of pleasant surprises this year!


Below are the presents i received from my frens last week...

3D doraemon puzzle and keychain from xinrou and samartha...

and this antique hello kitty phone from gh and pw...

Finally submitted ALS this afternoon.. such a stupid thing to do--travel all the way to school just to hand in the paper... anyway, its qing ming jie today, or rather yesterday... mum cooked alot of food to pray to my grandparents..


This is my grandmother's tomb..

My grandfather's tomb.. its abit too small, but notice that it was carnations that we offered to my grandfather.. those carnations were actually meant for my grandmother, but we took the wrong ones lol.. it seems funny to be offering carnations to grandfather..

Nice flowers though.. anyway, read up somewhere that a survey showed that most guys would be happy to receive flowers but seldom do they get so.. i guess flowers really do have the ability to cheer people up be it female or male...

The photos were taken during tomb sweeping last sun... wondered if this kind of tradition will carry on for how long...

anyway, thx for the birthday greetings my dear frens, esp TAN WANYING who called at 12midnight sharp hahaha..am so touched by the gesture thx alot... also many thanks to Samartha who's the first to sms me, you never failed to do so gal, really thankz alot.. Am so glad to have these frens with me, friendships are everlasting...

Still left with children's literature essay...

A long long time since i last blogged... Fell sick last tues, had a high fever of 39.5degrees, cough n sore throat... Still having a cough now.. had planned to celebrate my lunaar birthday(last wed) with my family de but was feeling sick, so postponed till coming sun.. hah..

Celebrated my birthday in advance with Celia, Sam and Xinrou in advance last sat.. received a doraemon 3d puzzle, hello kitty antique phone and a keychain.. Thanks gals.. Had dinner at a Japanese ramen restaurant at Suntec.. they serve very spicy ramen there!! haha nice food...

Went tomb sweeping on early sun morn, and theres massive jam on jalan bahar.. PIE's jalan bahar exit had a long queue too.. so this year we spent almost half a day thre and only managed to reach home ard noon.. slept all the way to evening and have dinner... slept alot alot as i was feeling very tired...

finally submitted ICT SCLP, and was delighted at prof tan's comments that our SCLP is very good and among the higher level ones for Chinese course students.. haha hopefully our grade turns out to be of higher level too :p Still leeft with als research paper, which is more or less done, just need to find more references.. Children's literature report still on the intro... gotta finish all the work soon and start on my revision for exams!! only then can i enjoy myself during the holidayS!

Today is Easter day, went CHC easter service as invited by Dear.. was actually abit reluctant to go, or rather am just afraid of feeling awkard upon meeting his cg mates.. Well, of course i still went for it, and I must say that the drama was nice and enjoyable..

Feel abit out of place.. not sure how to describe the feelings also, but just think that the probability of me converting is nearly zero.. Not that i cant believe, its just that i have my own belief now, and im comfortable with it.. dun really see the reason for me to change.. Well, there's no point in me worrying about this issure as i realised... i guess everything is predestined, if its really fated, nothing will be able to stop it.. however, its still a lie to say that the 'problem' is solved, perhaps juz leaving it alone first, or just waiting for fate to bring everything in place...


Out of a sudden, just thought of somebody... somebody who has helped me go through my rough patch of life in 2004... Missed the words... I guess life is always so, people come and go in oour life.. Whats noteworthy 是能够保留那位曾和我的生命旅程交叉的人的回忆，能学习它所带来的话语。也许，某人在我们生命中的某个阶段和我们擦肩而过，都是一个让我们学习经验的机会。因此，人生只是一个让我们学习并累计经验的过程。所有在我们生命中出现的人，都在某种程度上影响过我们...

~I guess the only thing that never changes in life, and that we have to always adapt to changes around us....

ICT is more or less done, only left with the concluding lesson part.. other than that most of the stuff are done =)

Was reading through my past posts, and realised that these over these past 4 years, many things happened and many things changed... No doubt I've learnt alot through all these things..

Watched Vantage Point today after lessons.. its not the typical action-packed movie, but a film showing the different perspective of things.. over the short 23 minutes before the president got assasinated, different people sees what happens differently.

I think its a rather nice and meaningful movie, as it taught us that there are many angles to a situation, and what our eyes see may not be the truth...

Anyway, received a whole piece of Doraemon stickers, personalised with my name from Wanying! Thanks gal, love it lots.. Had always love personalised gifts ^_^

went Hougang mall lib to borrow some books before going home, then went jogging.. a long weekend ahead, but packed with alot of stuff to finish... ALS research paper, AED104 wiki page, AAJ131 report...

Had a long day on Monday.. started the day by waking up late,45mins later than my alarm time... luckily still managed to get to school in time, took train to clementi then took a cab down to sch... as usual, had 2 hours of lesson then head home.. Had my lunch at home before goin Tuition for Russell.. Afterwhich, meet sis at Kovan for facial at Ella Earth, quite a nice experience there.. Then had Sakae for dinner then back home, was tired after the long day, but the facial sort of brightens up my day haha..

Had ALS make up lesson ytd, a boring 3 hours lesson early in the morn... On a brighter note, went to IMM with Dear after school, had Ichiban sushi, and then shopped around.. Had a great day! ^_^

Tuition again today, just finish cooking chicken rice, going to have my dinner alr..

Had a relative gathering at 2nd uncle's house yesterday, played daidee and some games with my cousins.. after that, went loyang dua pek gong with parents.. this is the first time i went there after it shifted out of its previous location.. it was quite crowded even though its after midnight.. and i've mentioned before that i think this is the most 香火鼎盛temple in singapore..

went orchard today, shopped around but din get anything haha except for my birthday present in advance from Dear... renoma wallet, chose by myself lo lol..


this is the wallet i got from him, thanks dear i like it very much :)






Had 2 desserts at Delifrance, chocolate mousse and apple crepe, they were very nice! love the chocolate though it was very sweet..

Watched The Leap Years yesterday, quite a nice show, different from the normal SG movies... I would say that it's really brave of Li-Ann, to pursue her love bravely.. Alot of the quotes in the show are very meaningful... Had Crystal jade xiao long bao before the show, and it was great! Everything is great! Seems like there are alot of nice shows coming soon.. Vantage Point, Semi-Pro, Get Smart...

Had sushi at Punggol Plaza with sis for lunch, before going tuition for Russell... well, luckily he's quite well-behaved.. lol cos he's so mischevious and rude normally during our CNY gatherings...

Shall really continue on my AAC101 essay else i'll never finish it lol..

Not a very good day :(

On a happier note, dreamt that I am at a farm, like those I've been to in Cameron Highlands.. Saw alot of tulip flowers and took alot of photos with my family :)

Going to be piggy le haha

Ate alot today, haha, had roasted duck and porridge with my mum for breakfast, cos today is 大伯公诞... Went Tampines to meet Deary, den we had bah kuat teh, pig liver's soup and pig trotters.. haha really eat alot lo... i had sesame+almond paste after that also heheh and he had egg pudding..

Watched 10,000B.C. it was really nice, quite unexpected as I thought that its going to be those animal-beasts kind of movie.. But its not, there're touching parts also... really enjoy it though ^_^

Had curry noodle for dinner, and its even more oily than the volcano ramen i had the other time heheh.. Deary was so funny lo, tell me he wants to get something and ask me go toilet or walk around, when we were just outside the shop which he intended to get the 'something' from... No surprise de lol so ask him next time then buy for me haha.. Have to be unexpected by me de then fun ma =P I still appreciate your thought dear, but next time dun let me find out heheh..

Home sweet home after that, really enjoyed the day =)

--珍惜现有的一切，绝对不能将拥有的当做理所当然
Through ordeals do people grow up and learn to cherish those around them, cherish every moment of life, every second that i'm still able to breathe...

Its NTU open house today! Helped out at NIE booth, and intro our courses to the juniors.. Surprisingly, there are alot of ppl expressing their interest into becoming a teacher! Many are attracted by the fully-sponsored+salary of our course.. The 3 hours duty pass by very quickly.. Met yangyang there also, and seems like he's more interested in chem-bio courses, he passed me the coupon for cchms bazaar cos he'll be enlisted into NS by then and wun be able to make it..

Went off for retreat with CLEAR exco, at Quality Hotel in Balestier.. Its a vegetarian restaurant, and the food served there is very nice! Next time shall bring my Mum and aunt there..

Had a nice day, with nice company... Though abit tired now, but still going to play wahjong first haha..

No ALS lesson today ^_^ so can rest at home.. supposed to be doing work, but I'm playing Wahjong lol.. Nobody's at home, cooked lunch le den play liao.. haha shall stop slacking le alot of assignments due soon, and tmr and sun wun be at home to do work also..


hehe my sis say the buffet there not bad, shall bring my mum for tim sum buffet there soon haha..


-always leading a happy n carefree life, not taking others' opinions to heart

Had a bad headache for the past few days... sadz.. missed lessons on tues, went to see doc and rest at home for 2 days... luckily the doc say its not sle-related, but there's a chance that she's not correct, though i feel that it has got nothing to do with sle at all...

booked air tickets to Hongkong in July, with gh, xr and her mum.. got a cheap deal for it, hopefully can find a cheap hotel also haha.. Looking forward to the trip...

Went for 2 tutorials today, before goin for Fish & Co lunch with Deary at Jurong Point.. shopped around before goin home, was tired.. perhaps am stil not feeling very well =(

Hehe i shall update my wishlist for those who want to get bday present for me lol...

Almost half the recess week has passed without me doing any work.. Met up with sec sch frens on Sun to celebrate Angel's belated bday.. Had dinner with them at Old Airport rd hawker, nice cheap food, followed by mahjong at xr's hse.. quite long since i last met up with them, it was great and we discussed bout the hk trip, hopefully will be able to go in mid-july..

parents went to Genting on sun and came back yesterday, and dad won quite alot hahah.. went raffles hospital for medical review on mon, waited almost 1 hr for a 5min tok with the doc, who asks me the same qns as my last review lol.. afterthat went bugis shop for awhile before goin to airport T3, my first time there haha.. had Popeye's with Dear before heading home.. T3 is nice, might have a chance to go haha cos most probably my trip to Shanghai with family in May will be taking SIA.. happy..

The CTC 8 days Shanghai and Jiangnan package covers 5 places wor ~ Shanghai, Suzhou, Hangzhou, Nanjing and Wuxi... looking forward to it.. but also means that I've to save up more haha Shanghai and HK trip... Luckily I got a 1-month tuition for my cousin, cos his tutor will be away for 1 month.. haha and hopefully will be able to start on my cousin's son's tuition soon also..

Alot of assignments, but no motivation to do... sianz...

Singapore will be hosting the Youth Olympic Games in 2010!!! What a surprise, I thought such a small country like us won't get the chance to host it.. anw, it's great!

Wanted to catch a movie at JP today with wanying, but realised that there aren't any nice shows... so we have lunch and just shopped around..

Think my parents will be going to Loyang Tua Pek Gong later, cos today is 元宵节,so i shall go with them ^_^

Be Patient. Act when you are capable. Success will follow.
--No. 2

守得云开见月明，相信只要我耐心地等下去，并持着不懈的精神，一切都会雨过天晴的。

I don't hope for much, just want to be a normal, healthy person... I trust that as long as I'm patient, 'success will follow'...

finished up my ALS assignment last night, making some changes here and there but it is more or less done.. Am trying to start on my other 2 assignments...

CLEAR CNY event is over! everything went on smoothly.. went to collect the fortune cookies early morning yesterday at Bedok... cos can claim cab haha.. Had a long day in school but was quite fun, can at least feel that the bonds amongst CLEAR excos are abit stronger now.. So sad I still have lessons after the celebration, hence got to drag myself to the 3 hours of ALS101... Nearly dozed off during lesson, luckily we went to the computer lab after 1 hour, else would have really fallen asleep... Met Deary after lesson to go home and he went for dinner with relatives... My relatives are coming over so I came home to cook...

Not many relatives arrived before I do, so I still have some time to prepare the food.. Whip up a dish of abalone with broccoli, and cooked shark's fins.. Received rather good comments from my relatives haha.. The dining table was cleared soon after most ppl had their dinner, and we started playing dice.. or rather gambling lol..

The day ended when the uncles, together with my dad, finished their mahjong.. after they left, i played mahjong with my sis and her bf..

didnt do much today except tuition in the morning... just helped my aunt to book genting hotel tix.. still considering whether i should go with them during my recess week...

Happy Valentines Day to all!
To those who're attached, may you and your other half have an everlasting love.. To those who're still enjoying your singlehood, may you have fun and find your other half soon!

Only 2 tutorials today, but hav CLEAR CNY event rehearsal, so stayed in sch till evening... there's a Master in NIE canteen helping ppl to suan ming.. so went with CLEAR ppl and listen to what the master says.. haha quite interesting to hear.. Well, I believe that somethings are predestined, and if something is fated to happen, we can't avoid... Perhaps there're somethings that we can fight for ourselves, but definately not all... and that's why I dun wan to ask the master to suan ming for me.. perhaps cos i'm afraid to hear bad news.. sometimes ignorance is bliss... 人世间的某些事，冥冥中早已有了安排，想躲也躲不了。所谓的‘人定胜天’，我想应该不适合应用于所有事件。

Afterwhich, went for Suki dinnner with Dear at Hougang... anw, the rose i received today is actually from my classmates and not from my dear haha.. my parents are shocked about this lol as they tot that the flower is definately from him...

Preparing stuff to 拜天公 le..


Watched Ah Long Pte Ltd on tues, it was funny... am very happy cos received a nice and sweet present from dear... though was home late and have to take cab home and my dad is unhappy bout it....

CNY is finally here!! had a nice steamboat reunion dinner with my family on cny eve before going to river angbao..
as usual, we went to sengkang's temple before going to 2nd uncle's hse, but this year we went to another aunt's hse befoer goign to 2nd uncle's hse.. so gambled abit in 2nd uncle's hse and then went to watch CJ7 with my cousins during midnite..
the next few days are also spent visiting relatives' hse, too tired to post them..

supposed to go big aunt's hse today, and my family are there now.. I had wanted to go since its so near my hse, but am just too tired.....both physically and mentally i guessed... perhaps i should have gone, as it might brighten up my mood since its more crowded there, its worse to be home alone now... =(

Its Chinese New Year Eve today! My favourite festival of the year is here!

Though this is the e-learning week, it seems that i'm very busy, both with school work and personal stuff.. been doing spring cleaning since last week and finally my house is cleared of rubbish now.. as usual, my family tradition is to cook popiah a few days before cny..

now am preparing to pray offerings to my grandparents... later will be busy preparing food for reunion dinner..

Got vday present from dear in advance cos he dunno wat to buy so ask me to choose myself... lol so he got me a necklace from SK jewellery, thanks Dear.. and yupz I also passed him the Renoma wallet that i got the other time while shopping with Biying at orchard.. hehe he have a new wallet for CNY and i got a new necklace ^_^

Wishing everybody:
心想事成
身体健康
鼠年行好运！

Cooked sharks fins for family on Sunday, and brought some out for dear.. It tastes nice and he likes it =D went to watch Atonement.. a little confused at first cos had no idea at all what the story is about.. but manage to catch the story halfway through, and its a rather nice show..

well, e-learning is next weeek, which is cny week.. sianz there're so many assignments to do.. better finish it soon so that i can enjoy my CNY! Dear will be coming over to my house on Mon, hehe hopefully parents will like him....

Shall research on my AED104 assignment now..

Went Bedok interchange to buy nian huo with parents and sis yesterday night.. It seems abit early this year haha dunno why also think cos dad will be busy for the next week till cny le ba..

since bro is working for dad today, i got to drive his car haha.. it seems better now perhaps cos i'm getting used to it alr.. went to 佛光山at punggol after my tuition.. saw my aunts there... then my mum and i take a look ard it before leaving...




after that we went to pasir ris and Tampines Giant, but din manage to get anything... am going to try cooking sharks fins tmr.. hopefully it turns out nice and then i can cook for my family again on cny eve as well as when my relatives are coming.. ^_^

Treasuring every little things in life, cherishing every breathe i take=D

最近
李圣杰

你最近不说话
怎麽了为什麽
是不是有什麽事让你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单
有点乱有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁
你想要的
我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的
却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路

爱我却不能给你我全部
我能给的
却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
这一次我们都能很幸福

suddenly like to listen to this song...

人生总是充满着变数。事实总是那么地残酷，那么地让人手足无措。原以为只要按时吃药一切就会在掌控之中，谁知……血小板还是‘一落千丈’。也许是因为内固醇的药量太少了吧，但是，难道就需一辈子依赖它吗？真得很沮丧，很失落。为何如此？

唉！早在2006年底就已知道，一切都是未知数，一切都不是旁人想象中的简单……

正在阅读Tuesday with Morries的中文翻译-相约星期二。书中莫里说：“一旦你学会了怎样去死，你也就学会了怎样去活”。莫里是一个身患绝症，即将死去的老人，但他还是很乐观地面对生活，上节目受访，启发他人。这不禁使我思考：我一生中最想做的事是什么？虽然我并不像莫里一样患了什么绝症，但我想这也是不愈之症。
——还在寻找过程中——

Watched Le Grand Chef at Marina Square on 13jan.. it was a nice show.. alot of cookings... sort of arouse my interest to start cooking and experimenting new dishes ahha..

Went for Yoga lesson last thur, it was fun but abit tiring.. but after the lesson, i start to develop alot of rashes and bruises on my arms and legs.. until now still haven't recover, cant wear skirts or shorts out le sadz.. went to see polyclinic doc but after applyin the medicine still got alot rashes dunno if i should go SGH.. cant get early appt leh.. sianz..

Both my father and dear said its cos of the yoga-maybe the blood circulation has some prob-and they ask me not to go anymore.. but its quite fun leh..

Around 2 weeks since I last blogged. Genting was alright, did not go to theme park as the weather was not very good. Just eat, sleep, sing ktv, watch movie there, basically just relaxing.. haha

Came back on 4th Jan, then went out to celebrate dear's birthday on 5th Jan. Gave him a surprise by asking him to meet me at Esplanade, then I gave him tix to watch 'Beauty World'.. It was a very nice musical... Most importantly is that he's happy ^_^ Also gave him a shirt I got from Padini in Genting... then we had dinner at esplanade before proceeding to suntec then home.. it was a nice and enjoyable day..

Nothing much happen in the first week of school... School life will never be interesting to blog about lol.. Went to River Community Church with Jiawen and Joyce yesterday night, their service starts at 6 and ends at 9.30 i was so hungry during the service lol... hmm then went CHC service this morning.. they preached about forgiveness and values-what we think is the most important to us.. i must say that the pastor is very strong in preaching and even me, a non-believer is affected..

Been thinking, isn't it ironic that it was during a church service that sets me thinking that maybe i should set my priorities right and come to the decision soon?

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!!! MAY 2008 BE A GREAT YEAR!!!

Let me now recap on my 2007 new year resolutions:
1. better health for me and family
2. good results that allows me to get into Maritime Studies/Chinese Studies
3. learn driving
4. beijing trip with family
5. forget about the unhappiness in the past year
6. relief teaching job
7. exercise more
8. stop pred

I can confidently say that I manage to achieve most of my new year resoulutions except for the last one, which is to stop predniselone-steroids.. however, am glad that the dosage has reduced significantly since last year ^_^ I shall say that 2007 is a great year, and I have no regrets for the year! Its a wonderful year and I hope that 2008 will be even better!

Now I shall write my 2008 new year resolutions:
1. Stop Predniselone-steroids (I believe this will be achieved since my dosage is very low now)
2. Better health for me and family
3. Organise a chalet with my deary
4. GPA of 3.8 and above
5. Treat my parents on overseas trip: China-Kunming,Dali
6. More exercise and lose some weight
7. Make a decision after careful consideration about religious issue

Guess that's about all for now.. haha will be heading to Genting with parents and sis on Tue! Shall enjoy myself before sch reopens!! ^_^

Happy Boxing day to all!!!

went for CHC service on X'mas eve.. the drama production was nice.. haha.. spent the X'mas eve with him and countdown near my house de playground lol.. a wonderful evening.. ^_^

went Bishan with bro on X'mas day and get my sis's present.. at night have dinner with family at Bedok then pick sis up from zan's house.. hmm then we exchanged present and I got a nice brown New Balance jacket! so happy..

still wondering if I should take up the offer at TM... sianz...

Watched National Treasure on Fri at Suntec, it was a nice movie.. Had Suki buffet lunch before that, it was great! all the sashimi and food, slurps.. hehe shopped ard at marina square and suntec, got a few presents for gift exchange and bro's gift... Had dinner at Cartel.. the st louis pork rib had a really big portion luckily i din order lol..

Gift exchange with yuxuan, xinrou, guihao, peiwen, sam and angel on sat nite over dinner at Pastamania PS.. got a nice necklace frm Angel. haha nice lo.. nothing much just catch up with them and then head home le..

tuition at TM yesterday, it was eventful.. now I have to make a choice..
亲情，友情和爱情。。。应该如何做出决定而又不伤害到任何人呢?我珍惜我和他之间的友谊，希望能在他需要援助是伸出援手；但她是我姐，我不想和她产生任何利益冲突或伤害她；他是我深爱着的人，我不希望让他觉得我不尊重他。
无论我决定帮他或不帮他，都会有人受伤害。无论我的决定如何，我也会对他们其中一人感到愧疚。或许我当初应该选择置身之外，那就不会卷入ｎｉｃ和姐之间的“纷争”了。
此时此刻金钱已不在我的考量范围内了，如何才能将事情处理的妥当又不伤害到任何一方和那些学生们才是至关重要的。。。。。。唉！这么一个平安夜能安心地过吗？

bonus treat, cheesecake, driving

Went orchard with xr today, it was so crowded.. and so sad she actually lost her phone, now she's into phone-hunting together with wy... the nokia musicxpress is not too bad i'd consider it if i'm the one buying lol... shopped at taka, bought sylvanian family! haha a bathroom set...
Dinner with family at Tampines, my bonus treat for them.. then went Tampines Giant it was also very crowded, got something for Leo can treat as X'mas gift haha...

Ghim Han and his sis came over to bake cheese cake yest, and we made oreo cheese, strawberry cheese and chocolate cheesecake! its fun melting the chocolate, think i shall experiment with it again and then make some nice chocolates..

Watched Alvin the chipmunks at TM on Thurs, it was hilarious, a very nice show, suitable for family... lunch at Jack's place, tried the student meal, not too bad.. had volcano ramen at ajisen for dinner hehe had a wonderful day really enjoyed myself.. ^_^

Went Bugis with Doris on Tues, only managed to get a plain white dress but dunno when shall i wear it lol.. it was nice catching up with her... hmm then went Geylang for dian xin with family as dinner before goin to 5th aunt's house... had a long day but enjoyable..


Now that I got my P-plates, and tried driving my dad's Nissan lorry and my bro's Nissan pick-up, I still prefer shifu's Nissan Sunny!! though they're all manufactured from same company, but they're miles apart! sianz.. blame it on the high-rising petrol prices nowadays, else can share money to get a car with my bro..

Today is a happy day!! ^_^
Its worth my waking up early for. ^_^ Really have to thank my lucky star that bless me with a nice tester.

GESL is finally over! Haha am so happy the 2 days events went on rather smoothly, except for the amazing race yesterday due to the heavy rain that all of us were drenched.. the students from Hougang Sec are cooperative, and luckily the gals in my team are nice ppl to mix with, else will be very bored.. weather nowadays are really extreme, its so freezing cold yest and even now when I'm typing this.. think i'll wake up with a flu tmr haha alr sensed the sickness.. Well, but at least the 2 day events are finally over and done with, so will not have to bother about GESL stuff anymore!other than the reflections and stuff..

Went Hougang lib today and get some books. Haven been reading books, think I really need some spiritual lessons thru books.. looking forward to gatherings with long-time-no-see frens..

Different people tend to have different viewpoints and different perceptions. For myself, I beilieve in the co-existence of things but some people just have to believe that there is only 1 way out. I'm enjoying my life now, living every day every moment happily, cherishing each and every person around me. But there are still things that I still need to learn. Guess human life is such complicated. One will never be contented. Or rather one shall never be contented, and should always aim high and achieve more.

Went out to vivo on thur, shop around but din get anything.. in the end went back to punggol plaza watsons and got some facial stuff..was too tired to do any shopping lol.. spent the whole fri packing up my room and changed bedsheet.. my room is very clean and nice now, even put a small christmas tree..

went sentosa today, played beach volleyball and captain's ball for awhile before playing with water.. nice and enjoyable..

seems to have alot to blog of, but dunno what to start with.. hmm seems a long time since i last wrote in my diary.. am contemplating whether to go and write.. which doesn't really sounds like a good thing since i usually write in my diary when i've probs...

Went on Malaysia-JB trip with NIE coursemates on Tues, it was a fun trip! Went Plaza Pelangi for Ktv from 11am to 3pm with lunch included and it only costs RM16 which is like $7 haha.. after that went to play paintball at some ulu place, quite a nice experience at least its something new.. went to Danga Bay afterthat for dinner and do abit of shopping.. got myself a pink shirt and a perfume as a gift.. had dinner at secret recipe--grilled black pepper chicken.. bought 3 cakes back, choco banana, choco strawberry and yogurt cheese.. yogurt cheese is nice... had a walk along danga bay, the scenery was nice, with some resemblence to esplanade.. took a bus to city square afterthat and shop for awhile before heading back to sg.. a nice trip with great company..

Learnt how to cook sweet and sour pork yesterday and experimented it looks nice but alitte too sour haha will try it again.. went to St James powerhouse with sis, qinghe and john at night. rather crowed as it is ladies nite, stayed till closing at 4am den head home.. while driving back, at outram road (opp outram mrt station) we met with an accident. A taxi that turned out from SGH banged onto our side door. We were on the main road so we have the right of way. That taxi uncle didn't even checked before he's filtering out from the side road. luckily qinghe swerved to the right else it would have been more serious and i would not be able to blog now... luckily we are all alright..

exams are finally over le! well, the literature paper today aren't that easy, but not very difficult either.. had Gesl meeting after paper, was very sian.. actually, rather 'eventful' today, somethings are quite a disappointment, perhaps cos my expectations are rising.. haiz.. well, i should be glad that at least its not too bad..
asked for a few opinions here and there, well, thx for those who advised...

its a busy week ahead, with many activities lined up.. will be goin to jb tmr with my course mates, will update again! :)

Coming to think of it now, perhaps post-exams aren't that fantastic. There will be more matters that requires me to pay attention to and to decide.. Now I can use 'exams' as an excuse that i need to study need to concentrate etc. I have no such reasons after tmr. I wonder if I can handle it. For now I just know that it isn't something that can be solved overnight, it requires time, long long time. Avoidance is not the way out, i will and shall face it bravely, and see how it goes. I cant decide now, it takes time. Hopefully...

Well, after 2 months of MIA from my blog, I shall start blogging again.. Tomorrow is my last paper, weird indeed that i'm blogging when i still have a paper tmr.. but have alr gave up on studying.. the past week was meant to study for this last literature paper, and i did study, with intermittent breaks...

Now, I shall throw my notes aside and rest well. Haha. I shall start planning on my post-exam activities. Quite alot, at least enough to keep me busy for the next 2 weeks or so.

22 hours more, and i'll be free from the exams.

你站在桥上看风景，
看风景的人在楼上看你。

明月装饰了你的窗子，
你装饰了别人的梦。

--卞之琳《断章》

I find it interesting. It just seems that everything is connected to one another, and there exist a link between individuals, whether you realised it or not.

so long since i last blogged, have been so busy with presentations, CLEAR stuff and assignment... finally its recess week, but it seems that i'm still as busy... will be leaving for cameron highlands and genting highlands in 1 hours time... heard that its scenic there and the weather is nice, good place to relax, guess its just the right time for me to go today...

perhaps its just fated... the time will come, because i know it sure belongs to me... guess i've learned to let go... its all predestined... looking on the brighter side, i will have more learning chances...

Have been sick for the past week... headache, sore throat, cough, fever... sianz...

Its Teacher's Day last sat, and Bronson(my tutee) gave me present! I'm so happy, though its only a small gift, but it just reminds me of myself when I was in Primary school... Although times have changed, but there are somethings that will not change... By the way, Bronson scored very well for his Chinese CA2! Though its an easy paper, but he still did very well considering his standard... Even Sherwin got me a present, haha...

Watched Evan Almighty yesterday, it was very hilarious... though abit short, but it was a great movie!

Rehearsal for MOE workshop at NYJC today, guess everything is quite in place already.. Quite surprising, cos we didn't really do much planning, and we only know about it like 3 weeks ago... Tomorrow will be the real event, hopefully everything goes on well...

Though this is the e-learning week, it seems that i'm even more busy than a normal week, cos there are more assignments and more project meetings... I guess this is life, we have to keep up with the changes as we go along, and be prepared for the unexpected... i shall hold a positive mindset about everything, and live my life to the fullest!

Beginning to like my phone more and more.. haha it seems so special and im still exploring it so thhere'll be surprises each day...

went out to celebrate yx's birthday in advance yesterday after tuition. went marina square for jack's place then walked around.. and i bought an esprit shirt(its in grass-green!!) and a skirt... hmmz really enjoyed the girls' company...

had tuition today again cos sis is not free... had a headache since afternn, but still have to go tuition... think i give up on doing Moral Education assignment le, the chapters on it in the txbk is really boring and hard to understand...

going to rest le still have a long day tomorrow... 5hrs of lesson, meeting with grp, then meeting with prof, then driving followed by zhong yuan jie dinner...

Just got a new phone today! S500i, golden yellow... haha its so striking and lively... actually just want to go lib de, but ended up getting a new phone haha..

has been rather busy for the past week, cos of the CLEAR club... its actually a Chinese club... am wondering whats the point of joining only after 1 week lol.. luckily i have Chocolate to keep me company, else i guessed i would have quit..

watched Bourne Ultimatum last Sunday, not too bad I would say... this weekend is so packed :( tuition on both sat and sun sianz...

seems like i've beeen too busy to blog.. 2 weeks since sch starts and i guess life is very different.. haha okies anw i've got a stupid lecture from 1730-1830 later... sianz.. luckily my dad is going to send me there! haha later treat him dinner ba.. luv my dad!

today is national day's eve! perhaps because am not in school already, thats why didnt really have the National day atmosphere that i used to have when i was in pri to jc.. btw, lessons at nie officially started, and everything is rather ok except for the 国际音标lesson today which has a really boring teacher and the lesson seems to has got alot to do with bio haha since there are many diagrams of lungs and mouth and throat lol..

its national day tomorrow and i shall stay at home to keep my parents company cos has been out almost everyday since last week after orientation camp... will be cooking chilli crab for them i supposed...

Long long time didn't update already... well, orientation at NIE started and i had great fun at the 3 days 2 nights camp, it was an excellent camp!
watched The Simpsons Movie and Knocked Up this week, both were comedies that are really hilarious.. great company makes the show even nicer! ^_^

i guess im really a happy gal this time =D

it has been a busy week so far... cooked the chilli crab for sis and zan last fri, and they said its nice but alittle too spicy haha i already add alot of kechup for them.. anw, fry banana also but too bad i din eat much cos wasn't feeling well..
sat was just tuition then back home for dinner then headed to whitesands.. and i got 2 pairs of shoes there.. there was this racial harmony parade thingy in punggol on sun and my parents and i joined in the crowd for the performance and also the food carnival haha..

went tuition on mon, then meet lib ppl for pizza hut dinner at tampines mall, it was so crowded even on a weekday night.

went on a shopping spree with bro and sis at marina square yesterday night as there's John Little member's only preview sale.. haha got some shirts and also another pair of shoes... spent like $50+ haha but nvm since sis treated us to sakae for dinner..

went tuition then badminton with sihui and raf.. it was fun, long time never play alr, feels good to be exercising cos haven't been to gym for a long time.. after that had driving then went tuition again.. was so tired will be going to sleep soon...

hmmz will be busy all the way till next week.. sianz.. 20 july hopefully everything goes well! ^_^

Changed the blogskin yesterday.. bt am beginning to dislike it alr lol.. will be changing to the green one soon..

Hmm am free so did the friend test thingy.. haha ppl pls do it for fun k?
http://www.truefriendtest.com/friendtest/719328

okies going to cook chilli crab for my sis and bf le..

Tuition on Sunday again cos sis went Genting... After that had dinner at Compass Point kfc with nic.. shop around awhile before going home.. Monday was a busy day, tuition, driving, sgh and vivocity... actually was tired le, but am happy so went vivo for dinner and view scenery lol..

everything seems alright and in control, but i don't feel quite right, am just so tired these few days.. have been sleeping alot..

Life is unpredictable, i once put this as my msn nick, and one fren commented that it's very cliche.. i know, but i think it is really true.. perhaps, not everybody can fully comprehend what it means... sometimes the future just seems to be so bleak.. whenever i thought of it, it just gets harder to keep going on........

Went Bedok with parents early in the morning yesterday for breakfast and then we went to buy crabs!!! took passport photos also.. went home soon afterthat cos weather very hot and we scraced the crabs will die lol.. reached home, prepare chilli and then kill the crabs then cook! Chilli crab haha first attempt quite nice, but the sauce abit too thick, shall try adding more water..
Went Hougang Mall with mama at night to develop Taiwan photos.. like finally after 1 mth + haha...

and today when i came home from tuition, saw 3 crabs crawling in the sink again..-.- dad say the chilli crab i cooked ytd taste nice so buy somemore haha.. okies so we have chilli crab for dinner today again... too bad sis in malaysia, cos she also loves chilli crab haha next time then cook for her..

hmm, will be rather busy in the coming week, and then looking forward to the week after next, provided everything goes well on Monday...

Went through a Chinese close passage(综合填空),its about a lady who has got some terminal disease since she's born, which affects her speech and hearing, attrating lots of unwanted attention from others. However, she did not give up and instead, she strived hard and eventually she became a well-known professor. She mentioned in the passage:"我只看到自己所拥有的，不看自己所没有的"。常人总是缺乏这种心态，总是身在福中不知福，为了一点儿微不足道的事情怨天尤人。或许，我曾经也是这样。但经过这么多的磨练，和看过这么多面目可憎，说话完全不经大脑，不顾及他人感受的人之后，我想我不再这样。也许我的一生（在和别人相比之下）会缺少一些东西，但是和较不幸的人比起来，我是幸福的，快乐的！偶尔，我也希望自己和平常人一样……

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Well, this is rather true.. Engineering.. Education.. but i dun understand the third one. haha i'll never ever go into media/communications...

Tuition on sat and then went parkway parade.. and its so funny, cos Nicholas and Sherwin started walking towards PP before I started my tuition at 2pm, and after I finished my tuition at 4pm and took a bus to PP, we reached at the same time.. LOL.. walked around and because its the last day before the GST hike, there was crowd everywhere.. Got an Esprit shirt, and Nic got 2 t-shirts.. took 43 back to punggol interchange and walked home after having a very filling dinner at Pastamania..

Celebrated Sam's birthday on Sunday. Invited her, guihao and xinrou over to my house for lunch and mahjong + dvd(just follow law).. Dad bought durians! Went compass point sakae sushi for dinner after that and yuxuan joined us. after that my sis also went compass with her fren and they're having dinner at Wasabi.. Jap food again, and i also ate a little.. haha..

Went for driving this morning, everything quite ok, and the ususally short 1-hour circuit seems to take a long time today.. anw learnt more recipes from shifu lol. after that he fetched me to cisco cos i need go for the photoshoot, but then i realised that they doesn't operate during lunch so i can only go at 2.30... sianz so walked under the scorching sun to Singpost for lunch then walked back to cisco.. meet Sam and wanying.. went bugis with them after photoshoot. abit tired so din really buy anything..

Mummy said that this morning they went to NHC and saw Miss Wong, my sis's pri sch teacher, and i knew her also.. hmm though she doesn't teach me, but she's my cca(eca then) teacher .. and she said that its good to be a chi teacher.. hahaha..

went to tampines yesterday after tuition to get ingredients for cheese cake.. went home and mixed balacan chilli and also chicken rice chilli first before making the cheese cake... the balacan chilli is very spicy!! should've added some normal chilli instead of all chilli padi.. haha anyway it tastes nice... but the oreo cheese cake doesn't taste as nice... hmm guess its too little cheese...

went MOE for the appt briefing today with wanying... alot of people, but very few were there for BA/BSc course, more were mid-career ones... the briefing is longer than i expect so after that just went Eunos for brunch then go Comfort driving centre accompany her to book Basic theory test.. after that i had driving.. circuit was much better today haha hopefully i'll maintain like this or better till my TP... shifu was so funny today lol... i almost laughed my head off.. drove to pasir ris, and buy ingredients for yam paste and lady's finger.. just finished cooking, and everybody says nice! esp the yam paste, cos the lady's finger too spicy le..

went to watch Surf's Up with mama yesterday after driving.. circuit still not very good, sianz... drove to bedok then have dinner with parents at the mixed rice stall that we used to patronise when we were staying in bedok.. the food there is still so nice.. haha.. Surf's Up rather good, as in its a cartoon meant for children so as usual there's this moral behind the movie, which is to ask people to never give up... love penguins.. haha the 3 little ones are cute... im going to make cheese cake soon.. and also alot of other things i want to do like learning to cook more nice dishes..

tuition this morning for bryen, was helping him with his chinese then i realise that perhaps im still better at teaching chinese than other subjects... and yupz, i've made up my mind to go into nie to teach chinese.. though engineering is also my passion, but sometimes, we live not only for ourselves and there're also physical constraints... afterall, its still my own body.. moreover, i heard that engineering is one of the toughest course to study and its also not easy to be engineer esp civil engineer.. im not saying that being a teacher is easy, but just that there're different aspects to every job and it depends on which angle i look at it.. and its just like getting a phone.. for example a walkman phone is equally good as a cybershot phone, but it all depends on which one caters to your need more, music or camera? im trying to say that 我们选择某种事物，也许是因为它好，但也有可能是因为在相比之下，另一件事物较不适合自己。what i want is different from what i can do.. 我想要，并不代表是在我的能力范围之内。。。无论如何，都要感谢那些曾给予我宝贵意见的人。

anyway, had a bad dream last nite... hmm perhaps thats what people say 日有所思，夜有所梦。well, i guessed that should anything happen to me, my family are the ones who'r more sad and worried instead of myself...................

Saturday~tuition for Bronson in the morning, and am glad to see his chinese improving, really a great difference from the first lesson =). Went to The Mentor after that, tuition for Sherwin, he's getting better also... Then had lesson with the sec 4s, go through physics with them and i realise that i've forgotten about alot of stuff... went bugis to get the black casio watch for myself, same design as the one i got for gh... haha after that went to meet yy for dinner at marina square.. there's ndp preview going on, and the foodcourt is crowded cos can see from the outdoor seats.. then went to watch beijingren at esplanade which lasted for 3+ hrs! nearly missed the last train home lol.. i would say that the show was too draggy...
but its a happy day cos i finalllly got the letter from moe ^_^

Sunday~woke up at noon... ate lunch before going the mentor for tuition again cos sis went bintan so take over her sec 2 and 3 classes... i prefer the sec 3 class and it seems that im more close to them.. after that went hougang mall with nicholas for dinner and also get my digital camera at harvey norman! got the Olympus one though i planned to buy the fujifilm one..

Monday~along the way out to sgh received sms from ntu, informing me that my appeal has been successful.. hmm engineering and education, now have to make a choice between these 2, and both are someting i like.. i guess i will choose edu ba..

apart from this, seems that there are also other things that are not getting any better, and instead, is getting worse.. he increase pred frm 7mg to 25mg.. sadz.. wat a bad day...

Went tuition this morn, then meet angel and xr at parkway to go ecp cycling!! long time since i last cycled... fun but bit tiring, having some backache now haha.. aftertat wanted to go vivo de, but in the end never cos found a shop selling cheap branded shirts at roxy square and after buying already quite late le so din go vivo.. went back parkway to walk ard for awhile before goin home... Aftertat went for supper with parents, and ate carrot cake, sinful lo, but nice la haha..

Am tired.... still haven prepare for tmr's sec 4 tuition class yet.. sianz i wan to sleep.. but have to finish the phy qns first.. somemore have to wake up at 9am for tuition... hmm.. tmr going to watch 北京人at esplanade.. hopefully it'll be nice, but its 3 hour plus leh, hopefully wun fall asleep haha..

okies tink i better go and prepare my tuition stuff..

What more can I say?? Papa said the bah kut teh i cooked was nice, and even amazed that i din buy the packet thingy to cook!! Sis and mama also said it taste nice.. haah okies enough of praising myself.. but i really think it taste nice too lol.. so happppy~~

2nd attempt in circuit on tuesday not as bad, at least never mount curb.. so funny, shifu actually told tracy that the chicken rice i cooked was nice, as if he gt eat cos he described till got dragon got tiger(wu leng wu hor).. then bro asked me is it i gt let shifu try.. haha i laugh till pengz lo..
finally someting off my mind.. hmm sis went pull and bear sale today and got a few shirts.. simple and cheap lo.. never really went shopping though its GSS now, probably cos i alr got alot of stuff from china and taiwan haha..

now thinking of it, only 1 more month to my tp, but not much confidence in circuit leh.. nvm, practice makes perfect, i shall practice more, and i'll be able to overcome! ^_^ this entry like so random, dunno what am i typing also, muz be the after-effect of the choya+pearvodka lol..

after tuition on thurs went tampines gym then go tampines central walk walk and met andy..
was resting at home on friday, and choosing the rice for dumpling.. at night went for fathers day dinner in advance cos bro nd do duty today.. and sis said she's goin to treat us to holiday! maybe going malaysia, i wan go cameron highlands!! yeah cos she taking bonus in july, dunno how many months haha.. hmm if can go guangzhou/macau also not bad lol..

tuitions as usual on sat, then went cote d'azur take ba zhang from 5th aunt before going bedok with parents..

woke up early today to make ki zhang.. hehe hopefully it turns out nice.. today Fathers day, but papa still need to work =( haiz.. anyway, later will cook bah kut teh for family for dinner, will be nice de =)

today is guihao's bday also, Happy Birthday gal! maybe goin minds cafe or settlers cafe on tue/wed to celebrate..

and i cant log into my friendster again! sadz..

Thx Sam for your comments.. im not stressed up actually.. its just that i need time to accept some facts... haah i dun need meditation cos i tink its escaping from reality? haha we need to be realistic and accept facts.. i believe all i need is time.. Anyway, bon voyage and enjoy your Shanghai trip kz? hmm guess the weather over there now is summer so must drink more water and take care kz? haha..

Monday went Leisure World with mama, 4th aunt and 5th aunt.. hehe so happy won a little in jackpot.. but yesterday's driving first time go circuit very jialat, mount curb a few times =x hopefully next time will be better..

Had bbq at Cousin Beng's house at Fernvale yesterday after tuitionss.. hmm, everybody turned up except cousin sean.. quite alot of food, and even red wine sponsored by andy.. well they had a hard time trying to open the wine with the not-very-good wine opener..

Feel disturbed by all the mixed feelings running inside me..

thought i was a happy little gal, but things doesnt turn out that well.. i hope im just thinking too much... i din ask for much, did i?
was still happily celebrating my dad's bday yesterday, cooked chicken rice for parents, had dinner with family.. but suddenly right now, i am very sad and lost........

Treated Papa and Mama dinner at Bedok 511 hawker on Mon night.. ordered quite alot of food, like bah cho mee, cha kway tiao, wu xiang and satay.. After that went for tjc library camp with Sihui, Rafizah and Christine. Had bbq, which was rather quiet as the turn out is quite low.. Then played the night games with them, the 'treasure hunt' or 'night explorer' as they called it, and the candle game! Both games were tradition games passed down years after years.. It was real fun running around the school with them, searching for the strips of papers.. and the candle game was fun also, but not as fun as last year... Stayed over in the lib and met wanying after breakfast on tues to collect our SGC and A level cert.. Well, my cert didn't have any annotation that i took my papers under special arrangements, which is good as others will not know! But it doesn't really make any difference.. anyway, went to watched Shrek 3 with wanying afterthat at Princess.. it was a nice and funny show, though i fell asleep for a while during the show.. was just too tired as i only slept for 2 hours during the camp.. haha went for driving after that.. luckily after the short nap in cinema i don't feel that tired.. will be going into circuit the next lesson, which cost an additional $18, hopefully i'll have enough money until i collect my next tuition fee..

Woke up at 10 today to go punggol plaza and get ingredients for chicken rice! Reached home at around 11 and start cooking! Papa and mama say its nice! haha am so happy my first attempt for cooking chicken rice turns out rather ok.. Sis also said that its nice.. i would say that the chilli and chicken is rather up to standard, but the rice is not very nice, like not fragrant enough.. shall ask shifu for more pointers next time... next im going to try cooking bah kut teh, shifu also taught me how to cook, it sounds simple enough, hopefully it turns out nice.. It feels nice to be able to cook something for family, perhaps cos i love cooking.. haha but my mum also dun want me to go into her kitchen and always reject my help unless during chinese new year when too many people are coming..

Happy Birthday Papa! May you always be healthy and happy!

Kor treat us to dinner at Bedok today, then we went bedok interchange Sheng Shiong and bought some groceries.. its surprising that my mum will want to buy things there, cos she always say that the things there are not as good as ntuc's, although its cheaper..

Papa just went polyclinic for checkup yesterday.. and it seems that his condition is not getting any better.. hopefully he'll try to control his diet and dun eat so much salty and sweet food.. anyway, i guess alot of things in life is predestined.. how much we have, how long we'll live is all fated.. i used to believe in 人定胜天, but after so many things happened to me and my family during the past 3 years, i think its all fated.. though i know that there are still things that i need to work hard for, but sometimes, i think even if we work hard at something, we may not attain the results we deserve due to other uncontrollable reasons like falling sick at the wrong time.. just as shifu said, he could have won first prize of toto if not for his wife.. i mean, it is this kind of experience that let us know that which is actually more important to you.. family or money? health or results?

Hoping for the best... of cos i am not going to sink myself into depression just becos of what that had happened, but somehow i just will feel depressed, cos of certain remarks by people who doesn't know the actual situation.. i understant that 不知者无罪, but sometimes it hurts.. but i believe im coping well, and am learning to cope with it even better.. undesired things can also make us learn..