中秋节

今天是八月十五，中秋节。
一天的行程排的满满的：早上7.40就到学校，担心学生不肯来学校补课，若他不出现我们就得上她家去找她。还好她出门了，但是到了学校门口，却又不肯进来。她母亲也无计可施，就请我帮忙。我出去了，却也一时不知该怎么走，这还是我第一次遇到这样的情况。还好过了一会儿校长就出现了。她连抱带拉地就把学生拖进学校。过后进行了一轮的辅导。我觉得自己获益匪浅啊……
「趁现在记得，赶快记下来几个重点：不要一直想着不愉快的事和不值得你当朋友的人，想想你身边那些爱惜你，疼惜你的人；你因为这件事受影响，万一考试不过关，就升不了中学，但是那群影响你的人却会过得好好的，升上中学继续他们的人生。这样值得吗？；他们说你是鬼，你是笨蛋。那我问你，你是吗？不是就不要理他们！；你要学会疼惜自己，爱惜自己。」
总之，就觉得她很有一套，另我不得不佩服，果然是能够服众的一个校长。停了她一席话，我感到惭愧，自己资历尚浅，人生历练不足，涉世不深，绝对不可能会达到她那种境界。想想，自己真的不会安慰人。还真的要好好学习如何安慰别人，鼓励别人……这门技术太重要了！
接着就忙着和各科老师们分享对策，连早餐都还没来得及吃，就收到care的电话，要我提早赴约。匆匆忙忙吃了几口米粉，就回去接凯再去赴约。做了决定。下午吃了午餐，到怡丰城图书馆找书却没找着，就到圣淘沙参观沙雕展（星际大战）——凯的最爱。天气是热得快要融化了，不过还是有一种莫名的开心。过后到了观音庙拜拜，送了凯到同事家聚餐，我就回来了。休息一会儿，也还在忙着学生的事，不一会儿就到妈妈家去准备庆中秋。
晚上将近11点才回来。忙了一天，感觉浑浑噩噩地过去了，好似忙了很多，却又好似什么也没完成。为何如此？好乱。好乱。到底在忙什么啊？到底都在追逐什么啊？

Confused

This is a special year... Good or bad? I'm not sure... Made important decisions, had hoped for the best, but things just don't work out the way I wish it to be. 

应该坚持下去，还是就这么算了？旁人说的容易，说只要一直尝试，不放弃，终会得到我想要的。然而我开始质疑了。

或许，一开始就注定不可能如偿所愿，那为何又要劳心伤神？

或许，应该相信一切冥冥中早已有了安排，无论怎么努力，都无济于事。

或许，什么人定胜天、守得云开见月明、皇天不负有心人、有志者事竟成这些都是骗人的。

或许，安于现状、知足常乐、无欲无求才是人生之道。

CNY eve

It's the CNY eve today. 1am now, can't get to sleep, just back from Bedok with parents, the to Punggol nursery to get flowers. After dropping off the parents, went to look for colleague to pass him CNY goodies. It's been a week since I last met him, seems like he is better now, just told me he went CNY last min shopping last night with the family. Good to hear that things are getting better. Also told him I'm sure it will continue to get better. Really hope to see him back in school soon. It is not easy definitely...

Few more hours to the CNY celebration in school. Gonna be a busy morning. Have always love CNY since young, glad the feeling still continue till now..

2019

It's 2019 now...  Today is a sad day for Singaporeans as we mourn the loss of a talented actor, who is so well loved by his family, friends, colleagues, practically every e who knows him said that he is like an angel... ...  RIP Aloysius Pang... 冯伟衷，一路好走……


This goes to shows how unpredictable life is, we should always treasure the times we have, with our loved ones..... Last Nov, I was just meeting up with buddy Samartha for lunch and shopping at orchard, and immediately that night I had severe tummy pains and shivering with high fever hence got to be admitted. Doctor said it is bacteria infection but unable to pinpoint what exactly is the cause. And now as I am typing, am having a very bad headache, while waiting for my colleague to pass me his stuff. It's also not a very good start to the year for him....
Just had a long chat with him... Got to learn something shocking, it's really not easy for him now, hope he will be able to tide thought this difficult times... Let him be back to normal again soon. Don't wish to lose a good colleague a good friend..

Update after a long while

Realised its been a long long long time since I last blogged. Am now officially married and am Mrs Wan now, or as my students calme, Mdm Seah. Sounds kinda old, but well, life is great after marriage! Shifted into our little new house on 11Oct15. Happimess is always there with us :)

 currently on a 3 weeks Europe trip with Deary, at Venice now. We started from Amsterdam, to Berlin, then Munich, after that to Lucerne, then Milan and now am here in Venice. Next up will be travelling to Florence tomorrow then we will end our trip in Rome to celebreate Christmas! What a great way to have our celebration for getting Connect plan :p

Shall update more on my trip when I have the time. Very enjoyable, fun, relaxing and enriching so far :D

雨过天晴？

好似雨过天晴了。水泡大多消失了，留下的只有疮疤。这一切不时地提醒着我，一路走来的艰辛……不知情的人也许会啧啧称奇，也许会用异样的眼光注视，也许会出言不逊。但这一切，我似乎习以为常了。再过三个月，就三个月，就将是我人生中最重要的日子了。充满着期待的同时，又有些担忧。好担心到时又会有红斑。不过我想，过虑反而会弄巧反拙。还是尽量放松，抱着平常心吧！

通过RO，得知主任这么评价我：体质不好，不适宜多运动，应该多多休息。

不知为何，听见RO这么告诉我，心里头有种说不出的感觉。不知是喜还是悲？知道大家都很关心我，心里自然很窝心。感觉就像是个大家庭。可是，她的这一席话，好似一言惊醒梦中人，让我不禁自问：难道真的是我太压迫自己，让身体太劳累，负荷不了，才频频发病？

我真的就应该不运动，多休息？或许，我需要做的，是截取平衡吧。总是三分钟热度，积极是就特别勤快，每天运动。上两个星期就是如此。跳绳、骑车、滑轮、健身、跑步、打羽球，整个星期下来，天天都在运动。也许这就是发病的原因？看来，我得找一些较温和，不那么耗体力的运动来保持身体健康了。

 话说我抱病在家的一个星期，做了好多好多梦。好像这一个星期内做的梦比一整年下来做的梦还多。

又一场风波

看来2014年真的不是个好年份啊！出院至今才4个月，如今居然“生蛇”（shingles）。唉！没想过居然会这么痛！
以为一切苦难过去了，接下来迎接我的应该是美丽的日子。期待着注册与婚宴的到来，盼望着新的人生。没想到如今竟然得了这令人痛楚的病。也不知得再拿几天病假。

是福还是祸

从三月中旬开始，就经常胃痛。四月初的时候更是有呕吐、腹泻的迹象，维持了将近两个星期。看了GP，也到SGH急诊部门看过，医生都说应该只是胃发炎。可是4月17日，当我再回到SGH复诊看Dr Lui 时，他竟然要我住院，说胃痛持续那么久，应该需要检查一下。没想到，一住就住了10天，4月27日才出院。拿了病假到5月9日回去复诊，他又要我再休息几天，到下星期四才回去工作。

住了十天，医生说是红斑狼疮发作了，也说有食物中毒的迹象，感染了什么Salmonella病菌，应该是迟到不干净的食物吧。应该只是简单的食物中毒，怎么就得住了10天，还说我的血管有阻塞，可能需要动手术做STENTING，把家人朋友都吓坏了。说也奇怪，我自己反倒不担心，而是身旁关心我的人比我还要操心。

老实说，十天在医院，感觉过得还挺快的。虽然还有工作上的事要烦，但大多数的时间都真的是躺在病床上休息。好久好久没有这样休息了。出院后的两个星期也是，一整天都呆在家里。绝大部分的时间都在床上休息。偶尔看看电视，玩玩拼图，做些刺绣。挺悠哉的。可是，胃痛始终没有离我而去，每当吃过东西还是会隐隐作痛。虽然不太会影响生活作息，但就是觉得不舒服。医生说应该是胃的问题，让我别吃太多。可我已经吃得很少了啊！吃不到半碗饭，有时也没有胃口吃菜，真不知该如何是好。

刚出院时，心情有些低落。虽然知道身旁有家人和朋友疼爱，但就是觉的伤心难过。觉得我的人生就该如此吗？脑海中盘旋着一个念头，是不是应该选择放手，让他得到更属于他的幸福。心里却有着万般不舍。

偶然间，在《古今大战秦俑情》剧中听见徐小静说：“爱一个人就应该紧紧地握着对方的手，一起勇敢的走下去！”让我顿时明白，为了爱，应该拿出点勇气。选择放弃，只是一种逃避的行为。看来，这回我是 Heart over mind了。曾经有人说过我是一个mind over heart 的人，才会因为某些事情而烦恼。现在，我想我让心占领我了。

心血来潮

突然有股冲动，想写点东西。
上星期终于去见了Dr Lee，得知了Skin Biopsy的化验结果，他说是抗体在攻打皮肤细胞。八成是和Lupus有关，但还得再做个测试确定。无论结果怎样，我想，这就解释了为何无论我如何努力，如何小心翼翼地保护自己，还是无法避免。真的，我真的都很努力，很用心地在照顾我那脆弱的皮肤。可是，它就是会无缘无故地突然发作。不是我想要的，但又有何人能理解？

好累，好厌倦。

今天上了童军组长课程，很是享受，很想再继续多参与，可却碍于我的缺乏自信，总觉得他人会用异样眼光来看我。觉得自己变得很多疑，很会猜忌，老觉得别人在盯着我，在对我品头论足。也许真的如此，也许只是我多心了。又怎样呢？到头来，因缺乏自信而感到闷闷不乐的是我自己。

我想我必须学会勇敢地面对。
可是不知为何，我总觉得自己在孤独奋战。

Nice song

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NiPTJpDzYDk&feature=youtube_gdata_player

2014

转眼间，已是2014年的第九天了。还没来得及写新年新展望，就觉得今年很是不顺。1月3日就到了SGH进行Skin Biopsy，今天又到SGH看Dr Lui。虽然两次看医生都挺愉快的（因为替我做Skin Biopsy的是帅帅的Dr Oh，而Dr Lui 又是那么地可爱，哈哈，所以不觉得等待是烦闷的:P）
可是，身体状况似乎不那么好。子去年底开始，几乎每天晚上都会风湿，不是这里痛就是那里痛。近几日更是日剧严重，从傍晚开始就无法正常行走。唉，那是多么痛苦啊！终于无法忍受，昨早发电邮给Dr Lui，他立刻回复“Pl see me at ARC at 12 tmr”。接到他的回复，既是欣喜，又是困扰。他会让我立即去复诊，肯定不是什么好事吧。果然，今天见了他之后，他是是红斑狼疮影响到了我的关节，所以只好暂时增加药物，希望有所帮助。好不容易，药物减少了；盼了那么久，终于可以不用那么依赖药物；耗了那么多精力，终于减少了药物的副作用……没想到，现在又被打回原形。
唉，究竟何时才能摆脱这一切，何时才能不用依赖药物？究竟该怎么做，才能阻止病情恶化？
或许，无论我怎么做，都无法阻止。
或许，无论我怎么尝试，都无济于事。
或许，无论我如何保持乐观，都无法摆脱命运的安排。
或许，无论我如何积极面对，都无法挣脱这一切的造化弄人。

那么，为何我还得那么努力，那么积极，那么小心翼翼地过我的人生？
如果“一切都是命，半点不由人”那为什么历来人们都在不停地努力挣脱命运的安排？

活着，究竟是为了什么？
活着，是为了能每天继续挣扎着如何继续活下去？
活着，是为了能勇敢地面对一切与一切的未知数？

如果，这次的病情发作不是影响关节，而是其他器官？我想，那或许也不过是迟早的事。既然知道病情会继续恶化，那为什么还要活着等待那天的到来？为什么还要给我身边的人假的希望？为什么还要让他们满怀期待着往后的日子？为什么？究竟为什么这一切不能尽早结束，而是具有那么多的未知？？？

我宁愿，医生能给我一个定数。真的。7年来，已经尽量充实地过我的人生。我会尽量享受，尽量抽空陪我身边关爱我的人，因为我不知道哪天我会离他们而去。可是，这一切的未知始终让我深感困扰。因为我不知怎样给他们许下承诺。我真的害怕。

Night Safari

Went to Night Safari with Deary today. Last day to redeem the Groupon deal bought months ago. Guess this is the problem with those deals. Always buy it thinking its cheap, but sometimes ended up not using it.

Anyway, quite a nice experience there. Started off with a dinner at Bongos Burger, setting, ambience and service seems like fast-food restaurant, but the food and prices seems more like restaurants.. so overall i think its quite good, as the food is good, and we can watch the performance while eating!

After the fire performance, we went into the park. Quite a huge crowd I would say. Mostly foreigners though, as it is a Sunday. Went for the walking trails first, as the sky is not completely dark yet, so can we guess it will be easier for us to 'spot' the animals. The trails are all shorter than expected, and we only spend like 1 hour to finish all the 4 trails.

Went for the Creatures of the Night show at 8.30pm, great performance! There's interaction with the audience also. Always liked this type of performances that involve the audience. Not that boring. Love the raccoon and otter!

After the show, we quickly get to the tram station to catch a tram. (Because we saw a long queue for it before we went for the show, and it states there Waiting Time: 60mins). We were thinking that if the queue is still as long after the show, might want to give it a miss. Luckily, the queue is much shorter this time round! Manage to get onto the 3rd or 4th tram that comes. Pretty short wait actually. Like the tram ride, as it's cooling to travel on it, and we can see the animals quite closely for some. After the tram ride, it was home sweet home!

Love the elephants, otters, tapiers! there were quite a number of cat species there too!

A great and enjoyable trip, although there is still work tomorrow. Well, but I guess I have sort of grown out of the age that I dread going out on Sundays. Haha, remembered that when I was in Primary and lower Secondary, always dread Sundays, and the last few days of school holidays. Will feel really down during those days. Come to think of it now. 与其闷闷不乐地让时光蹉跎，倒不如好好地享受最后的假期，使自己过得更充实，更开心。

再过两个星期，就要带学生去台湾了。好多筹备工作似乎都没做好。感觉很没有安全感。看来这两周有得忙了！还得准备第四学段的配套等。不过，我却不会觉得压力很大，只是偶尔想要发发怨气罢了。仔细想来，也不是那么多事情做。

忙里偷闲

好一个忙忙碌碌的第三学段！突然间，觉得有点喘不过气來。琐琐碎碎，点点滴滴，大大小小，使我朝朝暮暮，日日夜夜皆无法松懈。
HA,enrichment,immersion,弟子规，书法，阅读计划……还没提及cca 和 lesson ob。加上swc,level rep的工作，突然觉得工作好繁重！
突然间，他又和我提及这么一个沉重、烦人、懊恼的课题。唉，我所需要的那些鼓励与支持在哪儿呢？？有必要在我如此繁忙的时段來和我商议此事吗？
明知不是一朝半夕能解决的问题，何苦如此执着呢？
我的动力在哪儿？！
好想忙里偷闲，真的好想。但什么都提不起劲。只希望能够拥有双倍的时间。我那万能的小叮当，你在哪儿？我急需要你！

三思而后行

做了一个不知是对还是错的决定，感觉很不舒服……唉！想要帮他，结果却似乎弄巧反拙了。到底该如何是好？我应该考虑清楚，应该三思而后行。我承认，这回有些意气用事，有些失去理智，没有顾虑周全。我应该冷静地好好思考的。究竟是对还是错？？？怎么会有这种似曾相似的感觉呢？曾几何时，也因为一件不完全是我的错的事感到良心不安。如今，也有类似的感觉……只不过，当年的事不在我的控制范围内。这回，是完全由我引起的。假如我息事宁人，假如我装聋作哑，假如我毫不在乎，假如我不挺身而出，假如我不那么意气用事，或许，或许……

现在说这些，还有用吗？

只想对我无意间伤害的人说声“对不起”。我是无心的。我当时没想那么多，没想到后果会是怎样的。

好想找个借口，说我是忙昏了头才丧失原应有的冷静的思考能力。借口，是为了谁而编造的呢？是为了让良心过意得去？还是为了说服自己说自己没错，而错在他人？

总而言之，如果我多加考虑，想一想后果，也许我就不会做出这个决定了。

这将是一个毕生难忘的人生历程。也教会了我，做事情一定要瞻前顾后。我下次一定会，肯定会了。

Start of new term

CNY is over, term 1 holidays over. A hectic term 1, am glad the CNY event went on quite ok, Brownies camp also over, and things are progressing well. Parents briefing on HA was great! Had a strange feeling while giving the presentation half way through. Not as scary as I had expected it to be though. Haha. Went Genting with parents during the holidays, won some money hehe..

Come term 2, need prepare for immersion. Many things to settle, boss not around, stress and busy. 但我坚信，梅花香自苦寒来～～我一定能勇敢面对一切！

迎新春

再过几天，就是癸巳年了。迎新春的当儿，在百忙之中，感触良多……之前说了，２０１３年负责两项较大的项目，第一就是即将来临的新年庆祝活动。日子越逼近，就感觉无限的压力。无形中，这让我无法像往年一样沉浸在期盼着新一年到来的欢乐气氛中。种种琐碎的事件，样样繁琐，却都需要顾全及。终于能体会，筹办活动的辛劳了。
过了新年，接踵而来的便是五月份的浸濡活动了。现在满是期待，但相信两个月后，我的心情应该有所改变。当下，只希望星期五的活动能一切顺利！

展望2013

Well, its already 19th Jan... More than half a month into 2013, here I'm, posting my New Year resolutions...

Recalling my New Year Resolution for 2012:

1. Travel to Cambodia/Tibet (conquered Cambodia!!! Tibet still KIV)
2. Stay healthy(well, not really healthy, but no major flare up too =))
3. No parents' complain for disciplinary issues in class(think i sort of did that, yeah!)
4. Finish reading Tibet Code! (still at book 6...out of the 10 books haha)
5. Finish doing the puzzle for sis & Zan(done!)
6. Enjoy life!(yupz! went for quite a number of overseas trip!!)

2013 New Year Resolutions!
1. Travel to Laos
2. Complete healing of my rashes
3. Take up a new hobby (Pilates/yoga)
4. Take part in adventure activities (Skydiving, Abseiling, Rock climbing etc)
5. Everything goes on smoothly for my CNY event and P5 immersion.
6. Do a puzzle for my new house
7. Source for suitable wedding banquet venue
8. Plan for wedding photoshoot
9. Maintain healthy levels of platelets
10. Travel with parents
11. Make my pupils interested in learning Chinese
12. Exercise at least 3 times a week
13. Communicate more with Deary
14. At least read till book 8 for Tibet Code
15. Read and Write more in Chinese
16. Live life to the fullest!

Wow, didn't know that I have so much wishes for this new year... Seems like an exciting year ahead! Shall really plan and manage my time properly! Shall also keep myself healthy for all the exciting upcoming events!

CNY is approaching soon... Shall be going to Chinatown with parents later in the evening for the lights up ceremony, this has become a yearly event that I do with my parents... Hope to continue doing so in the future even after getting married, haha.

昨天去购物了。好久好久没有这样，一个人自由自在地购物。想想从前，尤其是A水准之后的我，常常独自去购物、健身、看电影。觉得那是一种自我认识。现在，总是忙于工作，和朋友、情人、家人聚会与约会，似乎少了这么一层的自我认识。昨晚一个多小时的完全属于自我的时间，感觉更了解自己了。

希望能够在这一年里自我充实，更积极地面对一切，拥抱生活！

Saying good-bye to 2012

Happy NEW YEAR!!! May 2013 be a better year for all!!! :D

A year ago, ushered in 2012 in Ipoh with Deary, sis and Zan... Today, I'm going to say good-bye to 2012 and usher in 2013 in JB with Deary...

It has been an eventful year. As expected a Dragon year is often a year full of misfortunes for a Dragon... it has been quite a difficult year for me, especially on my health... With platelet counts dropping to as low as 16, and few other occassions where platelet counts is at a worrying level, I wonder if my positive outlook on life and everything is useful. Always heard that being optimistic and having a positive outlook on life is beneficial to all types of illnesses, but why doesn't it seemed to be the case? Anyway, due to all these low platelets, doc intro a new type of med, which cost more than $10 everyday... Well, if the med is good, then i wun mind the money, afterall, nothing is more important than our health... however, it doesn't seemed to be very good.. or perhaps it is, its just that my rashes are making me all stressed out that i cant seem to focus on the effectiveness of the med... these persistant rashes has been causing me so much stress and inconvenience... it causes lack of confidence as well... really really hope that it will go away soon, as it has gotten slightly better now..

身体状况每况愈下，也不知未来的展望如何……不禁让我联想到“金色摩天轮”里的沈君君。不敢奢望太多，只希望能够开心地度过每一天，并尽量让每一天过得充实，过得有意义。那天和NIE的同学聚会，聊了不少，晓珊向我说了一些她在台湾的经历，以及她的一些感想。不知为何，就有一种想要多了解的心态。因此向她要了一些详情。当时，内心深处曾萌起那么一个念头。那么一个骇人的念头。也许是已厌倦这种起伏不定的病情吧。不过我想，只要没有太大的波动，安于现状未尝不是好事。

2012年，工作还算顺利，没有什么大风大浪，可以说是平平凡凡地过了一年。展望2013，相信事业上会有些许转变。将负责两项较大的活动，希望一切也能够顺顺利利！

这一年，姐姐结婚了。虽然她的家离我们不远，但感觉就是不一样。她出嫁的那一晚，我失眠了。虽然她婚前也常常不在家，但就是有种说不出的不舍，有种莫名的想念……

总是觉得，和父母出国是最幸福的。好享受，好享受那8天的桂林之旅。希望年年都能如此。只求大家都身体安康，那么就能无忧无虑地尽情出国游玩了！

2012年，曾有那么一段时期，好似做了一场梦，想沉睡不醒，想沉迷其中。纵有甜美的感觉，却难免有些许的不安。只想单纯地相处，无需将它复杂化。如梦初醒，一切记忆犹新。抱着美好的回忆，继续展望未来！

4天的病假，一整个星期的休息，让我能在家里好好充电，养好身子。

昨晚刚在面簿上发表“期盼着雨后的晴天”，真的好希望晴天能赶快到来，让红斑赶快消失。

迷惘

究竟是造化弄人，还是人无定力？

感情与感觉，如何抉择？茫茫人海中……

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不一样的中秋

今天是中秋节。一个不一样的中秋节。找不回从前的感觉，搞不懂内心的玄奥，摸不透凌乱的思绪。

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第二次以教师的身份庆祝教师节。感触良多。喜欢孩子们的童真，但却常因他们不肯认真而感到无奈。凡事尽量以微笑面对，开心地度过每一天，是我做人的宗旨，但却谈何容易啊！ 昨天在小三的差班班上讲故事，看见同学们认真地听，还主动向我把书借去，令我深感安慰。看来我得改变我的教学方式，以有趣的故事讲解词语？ 今天，有个愉快的庆祝会，之后又去打了一场羽球。简单的约会，不在乎时间的长短，却总能让我开心一整天。 此外，也发了一封电邮给以前中正的老师。他竟然花时间回复我！好感动啊！回想起中正的日子，真的好怀念，好怀念啊。虽然有些不愉快的事件，令我一度逃避现实，毕业后也不肯回去，以免触景伤情，但是这一切已成为过去。人是会长大的。如今回头想想，那也不过是一次磨练，一个让我成长的经验。或许，这就是所谓的相对论？A和B相比，B如果比较差，而你又不拿他它和其他相比，那么你或许是就会断定它是最差的。但是，如果出现了一个C，而C又比B差，那么，C是不是就成了最差的呢？如果无视世界上的芸芸众生，千百事件，那么之前的断定都能成立。但是，身处于天地之间，万物并存，我们真的能无视吗？2004年，我曾经觉得那是天大的事件，再也不会有更糟的事情发生。现在想想，那时的事也没什么，怎么就让我如此萎靡不振，甚至想要放弃？2006年至今，又是另一段令我累积经验的成长过程。一开始，也觉得自己不会再遇到更糟的事了。不过经过这6年，我学会了，没有什么是不可能发生的。时好时坏的病情，让我领悟到了活着的意义，让我明白了生命的重要。可以算是因祸得福吧。因为我觉得正是这种种经历，让我更懂得体恤他人，更有怜悯之心。虽然偶尔还是会因为他人因不知情而作出的评语感到痛心，但是我更明白，外表只不过是个躯壳，无需太在意。健康才是最重要的。生命中的某个他也曾对我说：“你要健康还是要漂亮？”还记得当时我笑着回答：“两个都想要。”他没有回答我，而我心里也明白，在当时的情况下，只能选其一。不知会不会有那么一天，我能和普通人一样，无需在两者之间做抉择？

Trying something new...

今天我遇到一个人，令我想起了他。总觉得他的言行举止，给我似曾相识的感觉。看着他谈笑风生的神态，不免令我追溯往事……

一个原本满怀抱怨的早晨，竟变得如此地有趣，实在是世事难预料啊！8年前，曾有过那么一个与他共事的梦想。如今，有让我重燃了这沉睡已久梦想。

近来，总有一些很奇异的想法，总有一些很唐突的念头。不知为何，想在平凡的生活中寻求刺激。

到底是哪个“他”，令我产生了这种念头？

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尝试

人的一生，有许许多多的机会等待我们去迎接。尝试，虽然不能确保成功，而且还有可能带来挫折。但若不尝试，就永远是个未知。

应该再次踏出一步，敢于尝试吗？一次的挫折，令我感到萎缩。

安于现状，不肯改变，是可取的吗？

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Updates of my life...

well.. since my bday post, quite a no of thing happened.. teaching has been quite alright.. getting used to it.. had Vibe branz concert on the last day of term 2 to celebrate our school's 15 anniversary. Afterwhich went to Guangzhou with parents and Korea from 31st may to 4th June. First time bringing parents along for free and easy trip!还好是有惊无险。爸爸妈妈都很开心，也很想再去。看哪天有空，再带他们去吧。看见他们那么开心，我也觉得很开心。

从广州回来后，就到柬埔寨去了。和俊凯尝试了9天8夜游，全程自助。事先做了好些功课，因此整个行程还算顺利。起初最担心的是从柬埔寨暹罗到泰国曼谷的路程，因为网上的评语都显得不很乐观。不过还好，一切都顺利，而且路途也还挺舒服的。亲身莅临暹罗的吴哥窟，感觉就是和在电视和/书本上看的不一样。好壮观，好雄伟啊！令人不得不佩服古人的智慧。

参观了这世界奇景，接下来要参观什么呢？老实说，在暹罗的那三晚，除了第一晚充满了期待，另外两晚都是“借酒消愁”。愁接下来应该要到什么地方旅游。之前一直把到吴哥窟当作梦想。现在梦想实现了，顿时有种错愕。好似没了前进的目标。我当然晓得世界之大，还有很多地方等待我去探索。但是，除了吴哥窟，我最想去的便是西藏了。然而，要寻得知音一同共游西藏，谈何容易啊！欧美国家当然也在我的“一生必到之国”里，但就是没那么期待。

不晓得有机会踏入藏地吗？

人生之事，起伏不定。生命中的某个“他”曾以过山车、股票行情等来形容我的病情。再恰当不过啊！

有些事，闷在心里久了，也不知要从何说起。总觉得少了些心灵的沟通。是因为工作忙碌吗？还是借口？毕竟，有些话题不碰较好。逃避未曾不是上策……

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My 24th Birthday!

My 24th birthday happens to fall on the day before the long weekend, hence I get to really enjoy and celebrate my birthday with Deary, as well as my lovely family and friends...

On my actual birthday, left sch only at 6, but Deary pick me up and brought me for dinner at Bedok hawker centre... it was a great dinner, cos he knows that I do not fancy high class restaurants and prefer hawker food =) after dinner, we went to East Coast Park for a stroll, and he gave me my present there, a bouquet of 24 doraemon soft toys!!! so nice and lovely =D

On good Friday, we went out for brunch at Yum Cha, for my fav dim sum! Afterwhich he brought me to view the Titanic exhibitions at ArtScience Museum at MBS, a place I yearn to go since last year... Then in the evening meet up with sis, zan and friends for board games at Settlers.. played many fun games, like the story-telling game.. hehe.. after the games, headed to Wheelock to meet up with NIE gals! the sweet gals gave me Mango vouchers and treated me to a lovely cake =) chatted about teaching stuff (as usual), haha it was nice catching up, sharing stories, and complaining/encouraging each other...

Sat, collected my phone from service centre, Samsung is nice to change the Motherboard of the phone for me, so its like a brand new phone now, but sad to say, I'm still facing the same prob, cant make outgoing calls or send smses when using 3G network... so they suggest I feedback to M1, which I did, but they cant seem to do anything about it... have to complain more before they really do something about it... afterthat, meet up with Deary and we went to Sentosa for iFLY! it was a GREAT flying experience!!! Much much more fun than expected =) Makes me feel like going for the real sky diving!!! Haha.. collected race pack at Velocity after the flight, then went for dinner and some shopping at Marina Square... Deary actually planned to treat me to Chocolate buffet at Fullerton, but I rejected the offer, hahah cos wasn't wearing very nice, and haven't been exercising alot recently =P

Today, went Ubin for the Mangrove kayaking with Deary, sis and Wendy, it was nice paddling in the mangrove, listening to the birds chirping, watching monkeys jumping around the trees, seeing mudskippers and hermit crabs... being so close to the nature, so relaxed, forgets all the hustle bustle of the city... makes me think of the Firefly trip back in 2005.... the peaceful river in Desaru, wonderful memories.....

All in all, it was a great 24th birthday celebration for me, with all the great presents i received, and great company over the days...

Life is all about enjoyment isn't it? =D

On another note, tried out TCM since last mon, though the med is bitter and a little troublesome, but am hoping that the alt treatment will be effective... Dare not hope for a complete cure, but just wish that it can control the illness better, and i can lead a life that is as normal as a normal person...

阔别多年……

阔别多年，再次回到中正，有种说不出的感觉。黄昏时分，校园已是一片寂静。能够和老师聊聊天，叙叙旧，感觉挺不错的。只可惜，我仍旧无法释怀。当年的事件，仍是阴影。

健康问题是否从那时开始，就亮起了红灯？血小板莫名的低，已是超不健康的水平，甚至到达需要留院观察的阶段。但一切还需照常，工作依旧，一切一切都需要如期完成，没有得找借口。突然觉得好累好累。生活究竟为了什么？竭尽所能，却无法让病情好转。纵使我再怎么乐观，也会有感到泄气的时候。真是无奈！

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New Year Resolutions

My resolution for 2011:
1. Have family trip to China
2. Travel to exotic place (Cambodia/Borobudur)
3. Participate in more voluntary work
4. Exercise at least 3 times a week.
5. Keep in contact with good old friends
6. Read more!

Travelled to Taiwan instead of China.. And it was a great trip!! Taiwanese are some much more friendly! Traveled to Borobudur too!! insightful trip, next up planning for Cambodia and Tibet! Exercise wise, I think I managed it quite well... Really not much time spent to do voluntary work... Think I need to adapt to working life first...

Here comes the New Year Resolution for 2012:

1. Travel to Cambodia/Tibet
2. Stay healthy
3. No parents' complain for disciplinary issues in class
4. Finish reading Tibet Code!
5. Finish doing the puzzle for sis & Zan
6. Enjoy life!

I just hope to enjoy life, and be healthy.. thats the most important thing.. really dun wish to go for the splenectomy as suggested by dr lui... though it may sound like a permanent solution instead of living on steriods for e rest of my life... but it may also have other complications... well just take a step at a time, and enjoy life and keep learning new stuff!!!

New year, new beginnings in 2012!

Yet another year passes by! Its been a great 2011, with a lot of changes for me... ended my years of education, joined the profession of teaching and became an official teacher. Tried travelling alone. Got new flat with Deary. Changed my status from being single to engaged towards the end of 2011. Got to know many great colleagues who became great friends, both from GDPS & WSPS. Travelled to many places in the year... its been a great and fruitful year, learnt a lot, grew up, became stronger, more persevered?

In this dragon year of 2012, hopefully things will be as good, if not better. ^_^

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金额摩天轮

看见金色摩天轮里的沈君君，就让我想起几年前的我。当时我也曾经有过和她一样的想法。只不过我没有她那么果断，也没有那么消沉。医生给她的指示，是按时服药，看诊，并保持乐观，开朗的心情。但因为医生的一句，：”存活率在10年以上“，让她非常失望，对生命失去了信心。医生也说会影响身体的各个器官，导致她产生离开识贤的念头，不想拖累他。

似曾相识啊！

十年的存活率？

遗传性高？

只能希望剧情和现实相距甚远……

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after a long long time ......

It's been so long since the last post.. officially a teacher and working adult now... just started sch holidays, but feels like there are endless work to do!!!

But I'm still very happy and contented, psychologically ... I am happy that I got a job, I got my family, I have time to do things I like,  I got things/events to look forward to... though busy, but I can manage my time.. am really contented with this kind of lifestyle...

I think that career, love, family, and health are the 4 most important things in life .. and I am glad to say that I have all 4... although my recent medical review isn't that good, with a low platelet count of only 40. But I'm feeling perfectly OK, and I believe that with positive mindset, I can conquer over the antibodies!  Therefore I constantly remind myself that I must not give up, perseverance is the way to go, and do not despair!! With this mindset, I see eeverything as an opportunity. With health at stake, all other minor problems/obstacles that I faced become so trivia that aren't worth mentioning....

To all my friends out there, please remember that no matter what problems you faced, think about the 4 most important in life, and perhaps you'll realise, that you're able to overcome all problems ...

为何我们总是要等到失去了，才懂得珍惜？

为何我们总是要发现问题后，才肯去补救？

为何我们不能未雨绸缪？

为何我们就是不能理解“预防胜于治疗”这个道理？

人，总是要在亲身经历了某些事件后，才懂得感恩，才懂得珍惜。

好好珍惜你所拥有的！不要执着于那许许多多的未知……

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Am I really so busy to blog?? Comparing to my peers, I think that my workload is one of the lightest considering that I have floating timetable.. but just dun have the motivation to blog...

NIE investiture and Convocation are both over in July, and my family had our studio photoshoot too.. went for outdoor photo taking at esplanade with my family also... i bet papa and mama must be very happy and overjoyed that all 3 of us finally graduated! mama was telling me the day before our studio photoshoot that papa said he had been waiting for this day for 7 years since my sis graduated haha..

Celebrated 4 years anniversary with Deary last tue, just a simple dinner at changi sailing club after school... though simple, but both of us enjoyed the nice ambience, great food, and wonderful service... gave Deary a Cross pen with his name engraved on it, hope he'll use it, photo frame with our photos collage, and chocolate making class voucher.. received a white adidas watch from him as well as a famous amos cookie.. since orientation to convocation, we've been walking hand in hand for 4 years.. many wonderful experiences that we had together, and many many beautiful memories... and of cos, there are bound to be some unhappiness, but all these are part and parcel of a r/s, and i am glad that even after 4 years, our r/s is still goin strong...

Just went for a chocolate making class with Deary on Sun, learnt how to make simple chocolates... really easy.. maybe can consider doing a home-based chocolate business if i wanna change job hahha.. maybe can start training now then 4 years later will be able to start my own chocolate business? haha its ok to dream once in awhile i guessed =p

Anyway, just had a cousin's gathering on mon, as a farewell party for guanquan.. he'll be leaving soon on 22nd aug.. had lots of fun playing charade, pictureka, pictionary, rock the beat etc... so glad that we can still play till so crazy when most of us are alr working adults... hopefully we can continue to play hard in years to come... really enjoyable...


have been feeling lazy to exercise these days... yet i keep eating and eating... and it seems like i'm dropping quite alot of hair recently, could it be due to the new Azathioprine that i'm taking? haiz why is my body always having such strong resistance to new drugs? i guess its same as my personality of not wanting to change, and always like to stick with the old and traditional methods... read online about a TCM practitioner who seems to be quite well versed in this area, maybe shall go and have a try.... but think shall wait till after 22nd aug and see how it goes....

meanwhile, will just try to enjoy life, be stress free, and be happy!!!

A brand new start

Its been long since I last blogged... well, its the end of week 1 of term 3... sort of settled in to WSPS, got to know the kids better, feels more comfy in office, can chat more with fellow colleagues.. i'm sure it can get better than this..

anyway, for the june holidays, had a 11d10n grad trip, firstly to Macau and Hong Kong with Deary, Sis & Zan, for 6d5n, then go on to Hangzhou and Shanghai to meet Wanying and Sihui for 5d4n... First time taking the flight alone, waiting for them alone at the ulu international terminal of Hangzhou Xiaoshan airport... tried many things alone during this trip... like traveling around alone while in HK for few hours, and then taking flight alone to Hangzhou, den back alone from Shanghai to HZ back to SG.. really salute those who travels alone.. cos frankly speaking, I felt kind of unsecured when I'm walking on the streets alone and such... Haha.. but quite interesting though.. a wonderful experience that I doubt will happen again? unless i go for some further studies overseas? haha highly unlikely i guess...

anyway, on a side note, realised a point from the trip, that is, my interest is akin to the old people lol.. cos when i saw the nice scenery of west lake, i thought i could immerse myself there the whole day.. i simply love the nice and serene atmosphere there, away from all the hustle and bustle of the city (though just opp the west lake is their city area with shopping centres and stuff lol)... however SH and WY doesn't think likewise.. they got bored after awhile.. hmm i think that's understandable cos after I got back to SG, i did a simple survey by asking around, it seems that most ppl around our age will not mind goin to nice scenic areas to take photos and such, but say they will be bored after awhile and wun stay long.. but asking ppl of the older generation, like my dad and other older relatives, they say they prefer to go such scenic places and dun mind staying there long... am i old? hahah okies anyway, its just me, and i just like it, thats why i always suggest goin to China during year end family trips...

Back to work-related stuff, workload in WSPS really high, on friday evenings, i can see alot of teachers lugging bags of worksheets/workbooks home to mark... and most were saying their weekends are usually burnt by marking books... how sad.. and i got to go back to sch tmr for netball... 8-11am.. thought i could sleep in late, but haiz gotta wake up earlier than usual... but luckily its a long weekend, so can enjoy a little longer....

Happy 47th Monthsary to Deary!!! oh and did I mention that I've gotten a unit at Punggol Waterway Terraces 2? hahah 7th storey, facing the waterway... so happy... will be ready in 4 years' time... just nice to save up =) gotta go and sleep now, so that i can enjoy tmr to the fullest!!!

end of 10 weeks

10 weeks has past, and that marks the end of my journey as a trainee teacher. Received my posting results, got posted to white sands primary. Not sure if I am happy or sad about it. I am happy cos I think that a change in environment can give me a chance to learn more, and can try to be more fierce to the students the 1st day.. on the other hand, I am ad because all the teachers at Greendale are very nice and helpful. Within the dept, everyone gets along very well, and most importantly, I think the hod is very nice and she's also very good to me! Just hope that the new school will be the same, if not better ..

Approaching the end...

Its finally Week 9 of our 10 weeks Practicum... Cleared all obs, and my sup will be coming down on Thur to discuss about my grades with the SCM as well as my CTs... it seems that the p3 class is really difficult to manage.. even until now, its not easy to catch their attn.. tried riddles, qian bian wen da ti, stories, games but still not easy to make them quiet... haiz... heard from other teachers its becos they know that i'm a trainee teacher, so not scared of me... they say once i become a full-fledged teacher, they'll be afraid.. is it true? hopefully....

well anyway, shall try to enjoy these last 2 weeks in sch.. esp with the p2 kids... shall have more fun activities for them next week.. they're cute!

March holidays..

Its the much anticipated March holidays!! Went for a 2d1n trip to Batam with Deary on sunday, he actually meant for it to be my bday celebration in apr, but i told him that i dun think i'd want to go overseas during apr as we'll be very busy then.. so we went ahead to Turi Beach Resort, and it was very very nice! A nice place to rest and relax... very nice seaview, our room balcony faces the calm and serene sea, and there's hammock by the beach for us to enjoy... though its just a short trip, but we really enjoyed ourselves =)

Made good use of this one week break to meet up with friends...
Met up with the gals on tue, to riverboat... had fun taking photos with lomolomo.. nice food and great company makes the day =) hope we'll have more of such gatherings soon... On wed, meet up with Doris for dinner.. had a nice chat... hope we can meet up soon after she submits her fyp =)
Went for dinner with family ytd, nice food, and at night, we went to the new Punggol Promenade for a walk to the new lorong halus wetland reserve... great to have a stroll after dinner, esp with my beloved family ^_^

well, planned to meet up with nie gals today for lunch, but i woke up with red and painful eyes... doc say its bacteria infection, and might be infectious, so better not meet them... wat a waste, i organised this gathering afterall! haha nvm there's always a next time... shall take a good rest these few days, since my sore throat also haven't fully recover... but i still need to finish the assignment due on sun haha...

生命中因为有了你，一切变得更美好！

2 weeks into practicum

Its been 2 weeks since I started on my final Practicum, which means that I've completed 1/5 of it!! Well, its not easy to manage a class, I think I still have alot to learn... But I'm glad to say, that I'm very fortunate to meet 2 nice CTs... Although 1 of them is our HOD, she is very nice, and very friendly though busy...

Completed 2 formal observations, quite a relieve.. I just want to clear them asap =P but i guess i really need to work more on the classroom management.. hope it'll get better as the day goes... still have 8 more weeks with the kids... the p2 class is quite fun to teach at times, cos they like to respond and answer questions, problem is i need to devise a way to keep them quiet and get their attn when they're too excited... p3 class not as easy to manage, but am trying... hope the new grouping that my ct arranged will help =)

one more week, and it'll be the mar holidays! just wan to get a good rest, perhaps a short getaway to batam to relax... wishes to go cable ski, but dun think am going, dun wan to expose myself to too much of the sun... i need the rest hahah.. hoping that everything will be alright for the appt on thurs... just hope the lost of appetite n weight is the result of the change of lifestyle and working habits, and not due to other reasons.... hope that those rashes are really an allergy reaction, and not something that i do not wish for...

乐观地面对人生，一切都会变得更美好！但愿一切都会顺利地过去，让我能从中获取宝贵的经验。

End of NIE life....

Time really flies, yesterday marks my last day as a student in NIE... 3.5years just passed like that... many wonderful memories, with lovely classmates and everything... guessed i'll miss many of them...

had planned to go ECP for cycling after lesson, but due to the rain, went to Tamp instead, and watched "Just Go with It"... its an awesome show!!! with my fav adam sandler acting, of cos it's nice! just came back from JB today, bought quite alot of stuff... but am sad that i can't get the pair of hush puppies shoes... hope i'll be able to find it in sg!! but i doubt so =( and i sort of regret not getting the donald duck soft toy... sad... but the bah kut teh and chicken was nice! as usual...

only edited 2 pics for my digital story this morn, and i feel bored, wonder how can i finish it in a week's time...

Great CNY!! Had lots of fun, playing Charade, pictionary, taboo, saboteur and other games.. and of cos gambled a bit and won some money hahah.. relatives came to my house yesterday, cooked quite alot, like brocolli with scallops, fried banana and sharks' fins.. while mum cooked other meat, fried rice, bee hoon, curry vege and pig stomach soup which many ppl liked! tau suan that mama cooked finished within half an hour! though busy, but was fun!

Last week of sch next week, many assignments due, many things to do, and Vday on mon! in the midst of preparing the presents =)

Approaching CNY

CNY is nearing! Looking forward, but at the same time, hope it wun come too fast! cos after CNY, it means many assignments are due, and I'll be going for my final practicum!

Anyway, had been having a bad and persisting cough for more than 2 weeks! visited the doctor 3 times, and he said its because my respiratory system is sensitive to the cold weather... really bad cough that deprived me of my sleep in the middle of the night, caused me to be eating plain porridge for the past week, caused me to stop exercising... can the cough please go away soon?? i really need to sleep well, to eat like normal, and to continue my exercise regime! somemore there's alot of CNY goodies at home now, tempting me to eat! esp my 4th aunt's home made pineapple tarts!!

i shall go and eat my cough syrup and hope my cough will go away soon.. its really getting better, thanks to all my friends who are concerned, and of cos Deary who cooked the cough tea for me...

anyway, stipend is in! shall go and sign up for the URun challenge =)

Quoted from wy's blog on the definition of friends: you cannot be friends without constantly insulting each other... well, how true is that... becos only if you treat the other person as a friend, then you will bother to 'insult' and make fun of him/her... so if i ever 'insult' or say something that seems to be making fun of you, it only means that you're my friend, and i treat you as one...

Definition of friends is really broad... In many aspects, you'll expect more from someone more special than someone not as important...

week 1 of last sem in NIE

its the end of week 1 for my last sem in NIE... only 5 more weeks to go, before I proceed to 10 weeks TP2 and then its graduation.. time really flies... it seems just yesterday that i went for moe interview, and the signing of contract, but i'm alr in year 4 last sem now.. only 3 days of lessons, but quite alot of work to do.. gotta change my mindset else i'll find it hard to survive the next 5 weeks! 以往上教学法课时我总是得过且过，并没有认真听讲。这回，两个科目都是教学法，如果我再抱着同样的心态，恐怕只是让自己这5周过得更痛苦。我应该抱着积极的态度，认为这些教学法有益于我的教学。

but seriously, i find it hard to listen attentively.. i just prefer other academic subjects.... anyway, cny is coming in 3 weeks time! just went to city plaza with wy yesterday to get some clothes, but din get much, cos not much money left lol! spent too much in China alr hahah..

相信世上最让人留恋的，就是一切美好的回忆……

Happy 25th Birthday Deary!

Hope you'll have a great birthday! I'm sure we'll have lots of fun in Batam!

强烈推荐《藏地密码》这部长篇小说。 扣人心弦的情节，让人卷不离手。连我这个平时很少阅读的人都被深深吸引，可见其魅力之大。紧张刺激的探险之旅，同时也介绍了西藏的明媚景色，不禁让我向往到那里去。也许，这会是我新的旅游目标。虽然我知道，至少要等上个三五年或更久，才有可能踏上青藏高源。

今天刚征服了10公里的慢跑，时速比上回run for hope 还快了将近10分钟，尽管今天的路面较滑，而且我又刚病好，加上已经很久没运动了。因此有这样的成绩，我可是喜出望外。然而，我还在犹豫是否应该参加usports 的10公里加33层楼攀爬的挑战。不知我的脚是否负荷得起，因为今天跑完10公里后，左膝盖似乎隐隐作痛，希望明早起来就会没事。

再过一个月，便是农历新年了。感觉今年的新年来得特别早。也许是因为去年的考试迟结束，因此觉得圣诞和2010年转眼间就过了。即是期待新年的到来，又不希望它这么快降临。总是喜欢这种期待、盼望的感觉！

Happy New Year

Happy 2011 to everyone! Its a brand new year, lets hope for the best in this new year!

Just got back from Chengdu last night, was a great trip, thoroughly enjoyed ourselves, the cold weather, the awesomely beautiful scenery, and the great company! the rest of the tour group as well as the tour guide played an important role too! esp the tour guide! he's really nice, the best tour guide from China that we've encountered! Overall, I think this is my best overseas trip so far, cos of the great scenery, i really loved them! and of cos, all thanks to my beloved family members to make it so fun!!! ^_^

My New year resolutions for the past year:

1. Treat parents to China -- Xi An (we went Chengdu, Jiuzhaigou instead, but its my sis treat haha)

2. GPA to achieve 4.0 (not that good, just hope i can maintain)

3. Learn to speak Cantonese - can only listen haha

4. To lose, or at least maintain my weight - accomplished!

5. Exercise at least 3 times a week - accomplished!

6. Take better care of my health - i think its getting better

7. Shower my loved ones with more love, care and concern - accomplished! but it'll never be enough!

8. Participate in water sports such as cable ski, snorkelling.. - accomplished!

My resolution for 2011:

1. Have family trip to China

2. Travel to exotic place (Cambodia/Borobudur)

3. Participate in more voluntary work

4. Exercise at least 3 times a week.

5. Keep in contact with good old friends

6. Read more!

Ubin trip~

awesome view!!!!

had an awesome cycling trip with Deary, Alvin and his gf today at Pulau Ubin.... not as tiring as the previous trip i went with bro and sis, but it was great, as we managed to see Chek Jawa in low tide! Saw lots of crabs, mud skippers etc... after the cycling, went to Changi V hawker for dinner before heading home.... wat a great day!!

4 more days to China~~

Meet up with tjlib ppl last fri, ate at NYDC.. its the 1st time i ate there haha not too bad, i had the Barger Mash, which is a huge sausage.. really filling, but we still ordered desserts after that... i had the big o cheesecake, yummy! received a faceshop travel toiletries pack for gift exchange, really useful! can use for gym or travel! ^_^

Xmas gathering with the gals yesterday, dinner at Marche, salmon with oven potato, a change from my usual rosti...

JB tmr, dong zhi on wed, and movie day on thur, den flying off on fri le~ happy but likes this kind of lifestyle, hope fri dun come so fast, cos i really like this kind of feeling now, as in you're looking forward to something very very much...

Finally, all exams are over, no more exams in my life, unless i'm pursuing Masters... haha but i kind of like exams, as compared to assignments... well anyway, last paper was open book, and the questions are exactly the same as last year's paper! lol.. even so, i doubt its easy to get an A.. after the paper, went to Orchard and watch Doraemon the Movie!! a nice and meaningful movie, conveying the message of protecting the earth is everyone's responsibility.. not much time to shop around, cos the movie ended 8+... shall find another day to go there and shop again before flying off!!

In 7 days time, I'll be in China!! yeah will be seeing snow for the first time of my life!!! its really a White Christmas this year ^_^

meeting up with tjlib ppl tonight, sun with the gals... next week's prog are quite packed too! ubin cycing on mon, JB on tue, making tang yuan at home on wed and movie day on thurs! its gonna be an exciting, fulfilling, meaningful and enjoyable holidays!!! hope everyone else will enjoy too!! ~~

如果你曾经被他人的言行举止所感动，那么，你的存在是有价值的!

latest status on fb... no matter who is it, what he had said or done to have touched you, it makes your existence on earth worthwhile. its a heartwarming feeling ^_^ be it your family, your lover, your frens or even just people who has crossed their path in your life... be grateful for these moments and feelings... they may not last long, but the memories will be etched in your life forever...

love your life, live it to the fullest, so as not to let these ppl who once touched you down!

wonderful day at Nex

Had a day out with Deary yesterday... Met him at SK to go swim together, the pool was crowded even at 12 noon! cos its a sheltered pool, so wun be affected by the sun... i swam for 10laps while he swam 2o, before we went to try out the slide.. haha tried once just for the fun before going to bath... afterwhich we proceed to Nex at Serangoon... it was really crowded!!! we tried out the set lunch at Hot Tomatoes, quite value for money, with nice aglio olio pasta.. then we shopped around, everywhere is as crowded... den we sat down for cheesecake at starbucks, do abit of reading, abit of chatting... den at 5, queued up for the free drinks that starbucks is giving out, cos they have a collaboration with Salvation army, to give out free tall drink for any amount donated... so we tried the festive drinks, the peppermint mocha and the toffee nut, yummy!

after the drinks, shopped around, and i got a dress from cotton on =D then we searched for food to eat for dinner, and decided to try out the new ramen restaurant by Breadtalk co.... not too bad, but i still prefer the ramen by ajisen... met Nic and Sherwin also, shall meet up with them soon, missed Sherwin's nonsense lol...

exams in 4 days, but am still goin for cousin's bbq tmr haha.. and although there's still a paper on the 15th, my next week is alr full of events! tennis on tue, cycling at ubin on thur, badminton/gym on fri, universal studio on sat, voluntary work on sun... hahah! i just need more time to do things that are fulfilling!!!

Last day of sch....

Shall blog on this last day of school....

Went to SITEX with wy yesterday after sch, planning to get Canon Camera... it was thurs afternoon, first day of the IT fair, but it was so crowded! the huge EXPO carpark was full!! even the ulu carpark at the other end of the halls when usually it very empty, is almost full and has to queue for like 5-10 mins before getting in! can see that Singaporeans are really free, and rich lol... so after getting a parking lot, we walked to the fair... it wasn't as crowded as expected (luckily), it was just flooded with those sales person (teenagers mostly) handing out flyers... visited the various famous camera brands such as Casio, Nikon, Canon, Sony, then as I was contemplating to get the Canon Ixus 130, walked past Audio house that's shouting about the hourly promo... the camera is only $269, with a dual screen... so after trying out, decided to get it, with lots of free gifts... loved the new camera~just that it'll leave alot of fingerprints, cos its those glossy type lol...

lunch with nie gals today at JP New york new york, to celebrate Alison and Aisuan's birthdays in advance.... hope they liked their presents... above is one of the watches i got for aisuan... liked this photo very much...

went off to Orchard to meet Deary, and we watched Unstoppable... It was an exciting movie! after movie, we went to Tung Lok Seafood at Orchard Central for dinner... yummy crabbie!!!! slurps...

yummy black pepper crab..

coffee ribs, nice and strong coffee =)

vege with 3 types of eggs..

and my favourite bamboo clam with garlic!

Nothing much to update for the past 2 weeks, much time was spent engaging in sports, and doing school work... one thing worth mentioning is our class outing to Chinese Garden on 11th Nov, to celebrate Shi Ting and Eunice's birthday! We had great fun... Ordered pizza, had frens who baked Green tea cake and nutella cup cakes.. I made some potato salad as well, and Xiaowei also made a different version of potato salad, both received good feedback... it was kind of a picnic session, with filming going on, and we also had games... while the others are busy filming, a few of us sat on the groundsheets, chatting and gossiping... it was a great get together session... wonder if this will happen again after we graduate...

had badminton, tennis, joggings over the past week, really enjoying this kind of life.. but seems like its not easy to maintain such a lifestyle... last sun went in to JB with family for brunch, and shopped at the Giant and Guardian there, then after coming back, slept in the afternoon before going for a jog in the evening to Hougang... I still do not have the determination to jog all the way to AMK... shall find a motivation for me to do so! wait till i conquered the 10km run for hope this sun, then maybe i'll have the confidence to run the 11km to AMK...

only 3.5 weeks of holidays in Dec, and 1 week will be spent in China.. i have many things that i want to do.. wanna go for a short trip to M'sia with the gals, wanna go Cable ski again... wanna have Christmas gatherings and gift exchange with diff groups of frens and cousins... but dun have the time!

First cable ski experience

Had my first ever cable ski experience at Batam yesterday, together with Deary, Gui Hao, Daren, Angeline, Justin, Jian Sheng and Jun Hong... we started off with knee board skiing, and my first attempt din travel far cos i just lose grip of the handle hahh.. after that is ok, managed to go for nearly 1 round.... tried for a few more times, before feeling the strain in my arms so we took a rest.... it was a wonderful experience!

tried doing the wake boarding, which is the one standing on the board... thats really difficult! only managed to balance properly during one of the attempts and travel around 5 metres.. i think thats the best achievement alr hahah! amongst all of us, only Justin managed to balance and travel quite a distance...

woke up this morning, and feel both of my hands aching! it was tiring, but really really fun and enjoyable... shall definitely go there again!

First cable ski experience

Had my first ever cable ski experience at Batam yesterday, together with Deary, Gui Hao, Daren, Angeline, Justin, Jian Sheng and Jun Hong... we started off with knee board skiing, and my first attempt din travel far cos i just lose grip of the handle hahh.. after that is ok, managed to go for nearly 1 round.... tried for a few more times, before feeling the strain in my arms so we took a rest.... it was a wonderful experience!

tried doing the wake boarding, which is the one standing on the board... thats really difficult! only managed to balance properly during one of the attempts and travel around 5 metres.. i think thats the best achievement alr hahah! amongst all of us, only Justin managed to balance and travel quite a distance...

woke up this morning, and feel both of my hands aching! it was tiring, but really really fun and enjoyable... shall definitely go there again!

Cable ski on Sat!! so looking forward to it! though i think its going to be quite difficult haha but i'm sure its going to be a great experience =) still haven got a chance to run for 10km... but have signed up for Run for Hope in end nov.. so hopefully i'll get a chance to run 10km before the actual run.. perhaps can take the park connector from punggol park to amk... motivation will be Koi bubble tea? lol..

anyway, went for lunch with nie gals at Pepperoni Pizzeria yesterday to celebrate Joyce's bday... nice pizza! the 21in pizza is really huge! enjoyed ourselves and had a filling lunch, at only $11 each haha.. went to tamp with wy after that, wanted to go Mitju to look at the pair of heels i saw at vivo the other day... but its not selling at the tamp 1 outlet.. so sad... bought a pair of slippers though...

looking forward to dinner tonight at a special place.. deary din know where are we going yet haha... hopefully it'll be a nice experience =)

人生不如意之事，十常八九。近日来，觉得家里发生许多不愉快的事件。先是四姨的胰脏长了瘤需要动手术切除，然后得知住在马来西亚的姨婆过世了，享年99岁。虽然只和姨婆见过一两次面，但还是不免有些难过。妈妈与姨妈、舅舅们今早回马来西亚的家乡吊丧，恰巧今天爸爸又生病了；上星期也得知哥哥和女朋友分手，我似乎也出现了一些药物敏感的症状，感觉上就是坏事连连。希望一切会尽快过去。星期天是哥哥的生日，希望有我们陪伴，他也能度过个愉快的生日！

雨后的晴天会更加美丽。还是那句话——生命是一个过程，让我们学习并累积经验！

世事的无奈，并不是常人能解决的，只能虚心接受。很感动，因为身边有着关心我的朋友；很开心，因为时间并没有冲但彼此之间的情谊。然而，总觉得万般无奈。因为无论我如何努力、如何保持乐观态度、如何坚持不懈地相信一切会变得更好，似乎没有多大的作用。

Just caught this movie earlier on at PS, was a nice movie... some what better than what I expect, cos my sis told me its not very nice, and i tot it'll be some boring show like 十面埋伏.. anyway, i think the plot is good, and andy lau is still as good...

not too bad, i've been keeping up with my exercising regime for the past week, hopefully i can continue to exercise often =)

Congrats to my bro for getting a job! His first day today, hopefully everything went on well for him....

不公平的世界……

“这世界是不公平的，没有人可以要求世界公平。或许，唯一公平的，就是所有人都必须面对世上的不公平。”

中四的时候，第一次接触到这个句子。那时候，觉得这句话说得很好，很真实，很贴切。6年后的今天，我也同样认为这句话非常符合人生。确实，世界是不公平的。完全地不公平。有人曾经对我说，我比世上很多人都来得幸福。确实，所有人都是如此。比上不足，比下有余，不就是这么来的吗？

想一想，也正是因为这些不公平，才让我体会到自己其实在某些方面是幸福的，是比他人好的。无论世界再怎么不公平，只要我们问心无愧，做该做的、值得做的、必须做的，那么又何须去理会这种种的不公平？因此我认为“打抱不平”是很不实际的，因为每一天，每一小时，每一分钟，每一秒钟，都发生着不公平的事件。如果真要“打抱不平”，岂不是的分身乏术？

积极看待人生，人生才会更美好！坚信阴天过后的晴天会是最美丽的！经历过了阴霾，下一次的阴天也就不再可怕了！我能够战胜一切的！

38th Month-sary

It was our 38th Month-sary on the Pink ribbon run day... after the run, deary had it planned that we go for chocolate fondue at Suntec... and after that was another surprise from him... Yup he booked a room at Marina Bay Sands! it was a great surprise i din really expected it! the room was nice, on the 37th floor, with a nice view of singapore's skyline and the esplanade and merlion park...

not to mention the great view from the sky park! it was awesome, i really enjoyed myself, despite the tiredness... must be the exposure to the sun... well all in all, thanks Deary for the wonderful surprise and celebration, love every bit of the time we spent together =D hope you like the wallet too =)

5km pink ribbon run

Just completed 5km pink ribbon run.. A min slower than my expected timing, but still ok :-) this event marks the first anniversary of deary and i joining all these charity runs.. In this one year, we participated in 6 runs:
5km pink ribbon charity walk (oct 2009)
6km run for water (apr 2010)
8km Urun (may 2010)
7.5km Run for Cancer (jul 2010)
6km Yellow Ribbon Prison run (sept 2010)
5km Pink Ribbon Breast Cancer Run (oct 2010)

So far the maximum distance ran is 8km.. Will be trying out 10km for the nike human race on 24th of this month.. If the run is ok, will proceed to sign up for the Run For Hope event in nov, to support the cancer patients..

Yup so this is what i meant by the change i'm going to undertake. Shall embark on more of these healthy and meaningful activities. Will be helping others as well as challenging myself :-)

This is going to be a great weekend! To all my frens out there who're reading, hope you'll also have a great weekend, and enjoy :-)

诱惑

食物、金钱、美色、名利、潮流等等的追求，往往都是为了满足一时的快感。
人，却总是那么无法抗拒这些诱惑。然而，只要停下脚步，仔细地想想，就不难发现，如此盲目地被这一时的快感牵着鼻子走，是那么地愚蠢，那么地不理智……
曾几何时，我也成了这样一个人。是社会的责任？还是人类的毅力不够，无法坚持己见。
不过，我所受到的诱惑是朝健康方面的。突然有股冲动，想做些事情改变这一切…

Mum's birthday just passed, and we had a dinner at Teochew restaurant in Bedok.. Food was nice! and Mid-autumn just passed also... had fun eating mooncakes, playing candles and lanterns with family+deary+bro's frens+ryan&russell.. sch life pretty boring.. haha cos i still in holiday mood, as in nothing much to do yet, so still quite relax...

Went JB the other day, and watched Wall Street.. had wanted to watch Piranha 3D, but only left with 9+pm de showtime.. so too bad, have to wait for SG to screen....

Wall Street was pretty nice, a little confusing at first, cos i'm not someone who's very familiar with all the financial stuff and stocks thingy... but as the show goes, i find it very meaningful... i like one of the quote in the movie: "Good day I'm OK, bad day I'm also OK, so please don't ask stupid questions."

I guess "are you OK" has been too commonly u

sed, that most ppl will just answer "I'm OK" even if they're actually not... I'm such a person too... and i admit sometimes i also like to ask this question hahah.. ok i shall try not to ask such a stupid question again.....

hmmm.. what else to blog? yup went for a drinking session with GH, Angel and Darren(GH's fren) last sat... it was supposed to be a mid-autumn festival celebration with the gals, but XR got project meeting so we decide to cancel it and go GH's house... hahah and since Angel suggested going to this place called Overeasy at One Fullerton, we just go haha... well the 3 of us drank quite abit that night.... one bottle of white wine first, and they find it not satisfying enough, so we ordered another bottle of red wine... less than half way thru the red wine, i tink gh alr got tipsy... in the end angel and i finished most of it...

and after that we still got a complimentary bottle of champagne! wow i tink Angel also got drunk in the end... lucky i'm still sober hahha but if i continue drinking, i might get drunk also =p but i will control hhahah..

Went out to orchard today to collect the pink ribbon run race pack... as well as to catch the above movie.... was nice! Zhen zi dan is really very fit lol! then went hougang for dinner, and slowly walk home...

some updates of my life...

long time since last update... hmm after the malacca road trip, went for Changi Seaview chalet with family... last time my bro can get the SAF chalet, since he'd officially ORD alr... 4d3n there, had BBQ on the 1st night... 2nd day went Pulau Ubin with bro, sis and my deary.. had a great time cycling there, but quite tiring... went to walk at chek jawa also, but its high tide, so cant see much... after Ubin trip, went back for steamboat dinner... yummy! played Wii late into the night.. Raving rabbit 2 really tiring... sweat alot, and our arms are aching the next morn we wake up! din do much on thu, except to play Wii, and then a jog around changi in the evening before getting the famous nasi lemak from changi v hawker... its back home on fri, and replenish the lost sleep...

went for Yellow Ribbon Prison Run on Sun, only joined the fun run, so only 6km... its raining that morn, so at first i thought the run will be cancelled.. but once i reached the starting place, those running the 10km route alr started! many ppl are running despite the rain! therefore we do our warm-up, and also start the run.. my first time running in the rain... quite a nice experience, except that it slows down the speed cos of the slippery floors... yup in the end i took 47.20mins for the 6km... well its faster than the previous 6km run i took part in apr, but i think it can still be improved... went to expo for carrefour warehouse sale, but i din get anything... den we went tamp for lunch, and some shopping before heading home...

sch starts on mon, and although i hav no lessons, went to crash other lectures, so that i can decide whether or not to change my modules... yup after attending the classical chinese drama lecture, i think i'd change to this module.. shall give classical chinese fiction a miss, and attempt something new.. drama should be more interesting.. but it also means more things to learn, since its something that i never really study before.. first day of sch, went out for lunch with wanying at tamp.. at a nice vege restaurant for pasta...

watched Grown Ups on tue after lessons... a nice show which teaches us the values of family life.. i think sometimes being childish is nice hahha..

after yan lao shi's lesson, i admired him even more! he's really so knowledgeable! he doesnt need any books/slides and he can just remember everything from history to geog to religion to literally anything under the sun! this is one of the reasons i chose his lesson over the supposed-to-be-more-useful ICT lesson...

Jogged to Punggol park on wed since i got no lessons... after so many years of staying in Punggol, this is the first time I visited Punggol Park(though its in Hougang, not Punggol)... nice place to jog, shall go there more often =)

Since its still the 1st week of lessons, and we still have nothing much to do, Deary and I decided to go to Bukit Timah Nature Reserve... we first climbed up to the summit, which took us less than 1/2 an hour... after which, we started our walk to Macritchie Reservoir Park... its a long journey of 10.9km... plus the parts that we sort of lost our way, I think we walked a total of 12km before reaching our destination, with a duration of 3.5 hours... nice workout hahah, but we enjoyed scenic views along the way, with monkeys popping out of nowhere along the way... but sad to say, when we reached Macritchie, the tree top walk has closed =( therefore i think we need to find another day to visit it...

Post-prac meeting on Hari Raya holiday.. early in the morning at 9am... quite a relaxed session, we just shared our thoughts on our practicum... my supervisior will be retiring this year, which means that i'll be getting a new sup for my TP2... so sad, cos this supervisor is very nice! hope i'll get another supervisor just as nice =p went out to meet gh and frens for minds cafe at night at boat quay, and we played from 9pm to 1+am.. it was fun, esp the bone-snatching game... had wanted to go for reverse bungee, but was too full after dinner lol..

had a relaxing weekend.. went compass point to get some stuff for white treasure, as well as to look for bday presents... shall be going for a jog later, wanna train for nike human race haha never tried 10km before... still contemplating if i should get the nike+ sports band.. cos i heard that it doesn't work well unless with a pair of nike+ sports shoes...

going to be an eventful week ahead, might be going for overnight cruise with mum and bro, and meeting up with jc frens, and sis's company family day, might be going to jb also hahah..

Wonderful Weekend!

It has been a wonderful weekend!

It started with my brother's convocation on Fri.. Went to SIM early in the morn... His convo session starts at 10am, but we reached there around 8.30, cos if we go too late then there'll be no parking lots... while having breakfast, my cousin and her family came.. yup she's taking the same course as my bro hence they're graduating together... after which, they went into the auditorium, and then i stayed outside and wait for Deary, then we chatted until 11+... had the sumptuous buffet lunch provided, and took lots of photos...

after the photo-taking session, we set off to Malacca! This is the first time we're driving in to Malacca... we usually only went to JB... yup so we made our way thru Causeway, then into North South Highway, and exit correctly to Malacca! we did not lose the way lol... cos got GPS as well as maps that we printed out... but traffic was rather heavy in Malacca.... so we only reached our hotel around 6pm... We booked Hotel Equatorial, it is a really great hotel!!! we actually booked an extra bed, but after viewing the room, we cancelled the extra bed, cos the day bed is enough for me and my sis.. haha so 5 of us stayed in 1 room... after settling down and washed up, we went out, and walked slowly to Jonker Street, passing by the ship statue as well as the famous red church... was really crowded at Jonker street! we bought those snacks as we walked down the street, and we were quite full by the end of the street.. and we still had dinner reservation made at one of the teochew restaurant as recommended by my bro's fren.. so we walked slowly and make our way to the restaurant, and had our dinner.. it was really nice, the fish is really fresh! and the yam paste is great too!! after dinner, we walked to the Muslim street, and walked awhile before heading back to hotel... it was a great day =)

early sat morn, went for a swim with my mum... there's no one at the pool, so we can swim in anyway we want haha... after the swim, mum and dad went for breakfast, while my sis and i went for jacuzzi... after around half an hour of jacuzzi, we went back to bath before heading out for brunch and some shopping... so, toge with my bro and sis, we went to the shopping centre right beside our hotel, and ate A&W! yeah the curly fries and root beer float!!! yummy! then we shopped around, bought some clothes etc... then its back to the hotel to check out.. after checking out, we drove to Jonker street, to look at the afternn shops.. we had late lunch at the famous chicken rice ball shop.. its very crowded, but as review stated, SG chicken rice tastes much better hahha.. but it was a nice experience... after eating, we walked around a while before setting off and head back home... along the way, we decided to go to JB to have seafood dinner.. so we went to Taman garden to eat chilli crab before home...

it was a short trip, but it was nothing but fun! it feels really great to be able to travel with family =) really enjoyed ourselves, and certainly looking forward to the next road trip!