reached home after midnite juz now... den tok with my sis n parents till bout 3.. nw they went to sleep... suddenly feels tat tis yr de cny rather diff from previous years... haiz.... maybe its cos im avoiding? i'm avoiding cos i dunno hw to explain.. n i also dun wish to explain... bt haiz... tink its onli when everione is buzi gambling den will feel beta... duno y also... bt i tink its a fact tat it'll remain in my mind... perhapz time will fade it.. bt hw long will it take???? it's been so long.......

sianz.......